CoOkIeZ pArTiEz

2006-06-27T16:27:00.000+08:00

MOVED(:

2006-06-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

i went for AC co concert today(: ahaha. enCOre. super cool right. like. the words fit in so nicely.=X okie maybe i'm the ignorant one. haha small things make me happy(: it was like an og outing just now at VCH cos apparently half the og went. saw cassandra, wenyi, mel(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(: and of course dance partner dominic. so funny. and we were so lucky that helen's parents and brother was sitting right in front of us. i dint realise until helen said mama suddenly. and i think her mum saw me with my stupid amazed/traumatised/constipated face. okie in short. smartie face(: haha. anw it was super funny how we sneaked in cos uh. i think this group of CO people saw me walking in and bumping into the pillar. =X haha but the concert was nice. i love the gu zheng part(: my fav instrument other than the piano. uh and i realised that dance partner know of this blog. maybe he got the wrong url. he's just a mad saipok.

oh 2 more hours(: this is my last chance to sing. I AM SIXTEEN GOING ON SEVENTEEN!(:

2006-05-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

1. weiteng(:
2. ah bek
3. zhiting
4. helen wong
5. yinhui
6. tong
7. youxin
8. joyce
9. chow
10. dominic tan
11. majun
12. vivien
13. weijie
14. yezhengzhe
15. kiamian
16. xinling
17. kylie
18. jac
19. elmo
20. big bird

1.How did you meet 14? (yezhengzhe)
some bbq in somewhere last year.

2.What would you do if you never met 1? (weiteng)
i'll cry. actually i dont know. then i wouldnt have a fav person then(:

3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (big bird and chow)
i'll. ARHHHH. wish them all the best and kill all of chow's rivals. cos chow's a chipmunk and i love chipmunks more than i love birds(:

4.Did you ever like 19? (elmo)
oh well. what do you think(:

5.Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (tong and kylie)
i uh. think and assume that both of them are straight(:

6.Describe 3. (zhiting)
she's a lil vampire loved by yuxing(:

7.Do you think 8 is attractive? (joyce)
my ray of sunshine who refuses to sleep before 12 everyday. people without 10 hours of sleep arent attractive(:(:

8.Tell me something about 7. (youxin)
she's my friend for 5 years now and i think she really regrets it.XD

9.Do you know any of 12's family? (vivien)
i'm her mammy.(:

10.What's 8's favourite? (joyce)
yuxing(:

11.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? (majun)
i'll tell her that edison wont like it.HAHA.

12.What language does 15 speak? (kiamian)
english and chinese.

13.Who is 9 going out with? (chow)
uh. fellow chipmunks?

14.How old is 16 now? (xinling)
she is sixteen going on seventeen(:

15.When was the last time you talked to 13? (weijie)
just. HAHA.

16.Who's 2 favourite band/singer? (bek)
yuki yuki and more yuki(:

17.Would you date 4? (helen)
of course.<3

18.Would you date 7? (youxin)
yup. and our fav spot is bukit timah.

19.Is 15 single? (kiamian)
i uh. dont know.=X

20.What's 10's last name? (dominic tan)
uh. dominic? tan? whichever applicable.=X

21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? (majun)
i'm sure i will(:

22.What school does 3 go to? (zhiting)
vampire academy. NJC lar.

23.Where does 6 live? (tong)
bukit panjang.

24.Whats your favourite thing about 5? (yinhui)
her poetic name(:

25. Have you seen no.1 naked? (weiteng)
uh. i wouldnt want to and NO.(:

i shifted this thingy here just for HELEN WONG. stupid her. ahhaha(:

2006-05-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

damn. i feel so sad. hahaha. thanks kia for constantly checking my blog for updates. i'm a lazy bum. hahaha. life is so different now. there're just some days when you succumb to your negative emotions and you're crashed. but it's okie. i'm yuxing so i wont be defeated by loneliness.

but i need you here by my side.

2006-04-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

boohoo. i shant abandon my pretty lil blog. hoho. i'm feeling kinda blue today. yawns. i mean. i love white tea shampoo!(: arhh. haha. my life's pretty boring recently. but i was just super shocked to see certain things changing. and certain people changing. when you think that you know people well enough to defend them. and after all the struggling to convince yourself that it is worthy. you find yourself weak and convicted to the fact that nothing is the same anymore.

well. if you know what i mean.

2006-03-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

majun just hand me the bomb! oh my. hahahaha. alright. here goes.

8 things i find in my boyfriend:

1) he must be older than me. and i mean. literally. i find guys born in july-dec younger. even if they're born in say. 1980. HAHA.

2) he must be a christian.

3) uh. taller than me?

4) nice eyes that i can look into.

5) pleasant personality.

6) loves people in general

7) preferably conservative

8) has vampire teeth.(:(:

tada. going nuts after write gp essay. loves gp. makes me think.(:

2006-03-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

yawns. ACJC!(:

i think i'll start to delete some of my contacts on msn. what's the point of keeping people online when they only bother to ask you "what school did you get in". yawns.

congrats for getting into hci.(: i really needed that info.

2006-01-21T11:15:00.000+08:00

FUN O RAMA! yay. it's coming! so please support your good friend here.=) buy tickets from me alright. ignore liting yinhui xinling and eleen!! oops. ahaha. anw got our classes on wed. and we're frantically trying to get our food stalls and game stalls up. yawns. haha. 1SB3!! my time table sucks lar. my classroom is on the 7th floor? now you know why acjc girls have pretty calves. =X lalala.

i hate it when you try to make me jealous. alright. i AM. now just get away from me.
and that's just so you.

2006-01-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

ELMO!!!=)))))))))))))))

2006-01-02T13:49:00.000+08:00

i'm going to school tomorrow.

no more 157. no more 15 mins to princess elizabeth primary school. 15 mins to pei hwa and 15 mins to school.

acjc will be the new destination.

2005-12-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

happy christmas!=) hahaha lalala. today was a dusty christmas. lala. packed my house for 4 hours then went bukit batok to shop for sofas. lalala. and tada. i'm home to pack my house again. and i dug out all my primary school rubbish i kept. =\ uh. hahahaha. and i chose this pretty brown sofa. it looks like a chocolate bar so uh. HAHAHA. well.=))) i'm actually very intellectual
lalala.

uh. i seriously think that my house is haunted.=\ i heard marble sounds last night. well.=)) i'm angelic so i'm holy!=))) i shall go sleep with my mum again. lalala.=)

new face! =0) the big nose smiley. =O) the weiteng big nose smiley. of course mine's cuter.=)))

2005-12-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

haha. i have a few things to say.

1) i'll be going ACJC for first 3 months. well. )=)

2) prom pictures are up. url: http://community.webshots.com/user/guniyx

3) our debut album will be up soon. tentatively 31 dec 2005 23:59. HAHA.

4) i hope ac choir wants me. XD

yay. short entries are rockish!

2005-12-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

what do you do when your happiness is the source of another person's agony?

let it go.

2005-12-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

grad night's over! roars. the theme's EXOTIC. wow. half the world wore gown. GOWN. poor zhiting and me were outcasted. and nwt keep calling me guai wu. fine. i look like a drug addict. and yes. we do look like we ran out of some cosplay.=)

vivien lee is super ultra pretty! but too bad people she loves me. so. haiya poor thing. she's taken! hahaha. =D

the food is okie. well. i demand more for 60 bucks. 60! i can eat 20 plates of duck rice. oh did i mention that i'm obsessed with duck rice nowadays. since tuesday when i ate that for lunch and dinner. HAHA.

well. our band is officially formed! our first album is shuang mian ren. named by zhiting and jac. =))) and we took our album pix yesterday at meritus! and i'm so happy cos i hugged nwt! okie this is out of point. but i really felt like crying.

i guess i'd really miss 4/10. esp youxin liting bek xinling and amelia. i wonder how life will be without youxin and liting. we're the famous qing chun wu di blah blah blah sen jie mei! you guys made ny life wonderful! i'll really really miss how you all laugh at my hair and call me fishball. i love being your fishball!=)

and to my class of 2005.
we rock. we know we do.
always.

2005-12-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

i'm finally blogging!=)) well. life has been fun. wild wild wet and stuff! still too lazy to type out everything. shall procrastinate.=))

zhiting! short entries rocks.=))

i dont need you to show me how much i'm worth.
when you choose to leave just turn and wave byebye.

2005-11-25T17:42:00.000+08:00

hahah 410 rox!=) back from chalet. dead tired. perhaps i'll blog about it soon. but not now. yawns. hahaha. i hate PAE. haiz. let's go innova.=)

2005-11-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

I AM DEPRESSED!=( hmphh. lemme see. i love david tao.mayday.ming dao. lemme list how badly hurt am i today.

i was juz happily watching xing jia po jin qu jiang todae. and i was happily watching for ah xin to come out.=))) he rox lar. so i wanted to search for his age. so i went yahoo. and i found his profile. height:180cm. O.O (yuxing: i wan i wan!) then scroll scroll. 1975/12/06. stares. 1975. mental calculation=30 this year. (yuxing: my math fail!) use calculator=30. (yuxing: NO! his birthday not here yet=29) heartbreak no1. then an wei myself. tong and utt. (hurhur) so i scroll. one of the fans happily wrote: "has a girlfriend and they have been tog since mayday was formed."omg.piang piang. mayday was formed 6 years ago. dunno whether to be happie or sad. bud ah xin rox for being so devoted.=))

and uh i went to search for tao ji ji. and uh he was born in 1969/7/11. tt's 20 years older. my poor lil fragile heart. i bet kia is laughing like crazy. i ought to be kicked for being so fickle.(=)

boohoo. and now we have dang ou. and guess wad. dang ou is nothing bud a kind of vegetable.=((

oh oh ah xin has a papa feeling.=)))))

2005-11-04T15:26:00.000+08:00

im breeding mosquitoes here. lalala. ask me about o levels. 14 more days. i should jia you.=)) life rox. i can uh. go kbox/chalet/movie marathon/youxin's house(XD)/visit kia online/new handphone/class outings/burn all my textbooks/start saving up for wang zi bian qing wa/watch cheryl ng(pretty!) on star idol.

okie. for now. let's start to focus on. SOCIAL STUDIES.

i shouldnt be online! grrr.

2005-11-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

wad to do. im simply in love wif fang wen shan. hahaha. well erm. nth really to blog about. except tt jay's new songs rocked and dang ou is way too shuai for my lil heart.=))

vivi is too hot for me.=))

2005-10-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

david tao totally rox. can you sense the sarcasm? of cos not. cos i am not being sarcastic. wow. hahaha.=))) it's raining heavily now. and lightning. and pple not replying my msges. am i used to it or wad.

im becoming weird. im feeling lousy/down/depressed and my blog entries are full of pretty lil smileys. =) why do they look so out of place. hurhur. life rox doesnt it.(=)

and now i repeat. it's rude to not reply someone.

well. do you care.=)

2005-10-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

sigh. physics prac is the killer. =(( I HATE HOT WATER! i was happily putting nice nice time intervals such as 80 75 70 65 60 55 50 45 40.. and doing them. and wondering how come it took me almost 7 mins to get to 60. and then i read the question. it said. for a period of 5 minutes. kiam pa lar. =/ i wanna strangle myself lar.

you asked me about life. about wad if you died the nxt dae. i've gotten over it. why do you say one thing and do another. it doesnt hurt me. really. you can try harder. =))))))

so wad if i die tml.

2005-10-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

chem prac totally rox lar. can you sense the sarcasm. haha. wt was saying tt if she sees smoke near the chem lab she'll come and rescue me. awww. bud dang ou will be jealous so. =*)) hahaha. found this real cool pix which kylie says tt is very nice. shall post it up. =))

life rox.=))

2005-10-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

i hate you. hahahaha.

and to think i always trusted you.

2005-10-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

finally it has come to an end. my four years in NYGH. my whole four years. frm entering the school at a tender age of 12 and completing it at 16. my four years. the four years of my life. the school that made me who i am todae. the school that sheltered me frm all negative things. the school that im about to leave. in less than 30 days. and the school im about to graduate frm. in less than 3 days.

to think i wanted so hard for the 4 years to pass me by when i was in sec1. i hated the school. i thot tt all that is good bout the school is the pple. how wrong can i be.

and wad did i do in these years. 4x365 days + 1 day. and now im left wif 3 days to pack all my memories. i realised. i can only be the alumni. i can no longer wear the pe tee to jog. no longer hating the hong zi that forever needs ironing. i can only be called. the nanyang alumni.

when did we become total strangers
how did we become total strangers
why did we become total strangers

it's funny how you can joke ard wif x when your heart is bleeding for y.

i lost the ability to smile the day you turned your back against me.

2005-10-16T10:06:00.000+08:00

hmm. todae is sundae. lets recall bout fridae:

so dint go for class party. =( cos had an appt with NUH. so woke up at 6am. thot tt if i went out now i could still reach in time. fell aslp cos i knew it was too impossible. woke up at 7am again. thinking tt everyone muz haf reached the class le. wondered if they thot bout me. managed to force myself to slp again. woke up at 7 45am and was thinking that they muz have started the party le. oh well. 33 of them. =(

dragged myself to NUH. waited for 1 hr. then doctor said muz go take blood test. and u noe how scared am i. was frantically msging pple who DINT reply me. like HAN TONG CHONG. hahaha. =X then the nurse poked me THRICE. not once not twice bud THRICE! =( cos my vessels are too fine. FINE! hahaha. so it all ended at 12 35. i RUSHED OUT. got on a cab. and got to sch at ard 105. changed into my hong zi(oh i love hong zi SO MUCH) and went back juz in time to catch mdm toh's lesson. HAHAHA. u noe. 410 loves me. =D i was waving like im the president. hahaha. u noe how i am. hahaha. =X

then ate frm the leftovers. (oohhhhhhh sympathize wif me! hahaha) and went to catch GOAL! wif tong vivien zhiting jac diana xiaole and siheng. while xinling yinhui and youxin decided to see if the myth was available.=) took cab down wif jac xl and zhiting and the rest came later. the movie was VERY NICE!=) i love santiago munez! =) and zhiting was screaming her head off when daivd(erm=) david beckham appeared for hmmm 30secs? hahahaha! i love gavin harris! althou we all think tt he's very super ultra hairy. hahaha! golden hair somemore. hahahaha. =X

went home feeling tt this is the best memory that i'll keep forever.

2005-10-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

2 more daes. it'll be gone soon. too soon. goodbye 41005. =)

like wad i said. 还来不及开始就结束了

hmm life rox. i love my class. no they're not juz my classmates. they're my frenz.=)

2005-10-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

i hate it. stupid. yar i got 10. stop asking wun you. stop comparing. i dint benefit frm the moderation. so stop asking. im telling u now tt i got 10. ONE ZERO. yar 2 digits. get it? now get away frm me.

i hate how im always the one left behind.

u told me tt u were pissed cos u thot i dint care. how bout me? i thot u had smth to tell me todae. bud i heard u asking her bout chinese. hah wad a fool. im so dumb. bet u were laughing. guess wad. if being upset gives me a chance to tok to u. i wish tt im the most depressed person on earth.

now u get it? this is how much u mean to me
and this is how little i mean to u.

2005-10-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

its enuf. stop telling me wad u wan frm me. have u ever asked wad i wan? wad a joke. so much for staying online even thou he's screaming juz to see if ure okie. so much for crying the whole nite when u left. guess it was the same as be4. im the only stupid one holding on to the promises. rmb the butterfly story? ever wondered y i hated them so much.

i thot u left me for good. i chased out. in the pouring rain. i thot u dint wan me anymore. i wonder wad did i do to deserve this. i was drenched in the rain. i was in my fav pair of slippers. i was feverish. bud i was smiling when i saw u. i was 5.

and u threw my slippers away.
the only thing tt accompanied me thru the darkest moments.

i wanted to msg u. bud i dint. i dun wan u to be another me.
a spare tyre. an extra being.

2005-10-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

rahhh. i hate it. im always mood swinging. juz saw the news on the bali bombing. i really dun understand where is the world heading. hell? everyone is hating each other. 9 out of 10 television shows involve scolding/killing/gossip. i switch my tv on to find all the shows to be on quarrels/conspiracy/backstabbing. i never watched survivor. i hated villa wellness. i was certain tt i wasnt as excited bout proj superstar after tt issue of i weekly on the backstabbing. i hate it. why cant everyone treat each other juz like how they want to be treated? can u practice wad u preach.

u noe wad. when u told me i can msg u anytime and anywhere. all tt is left in me is unbelief. thankew for at least telling me tt. bud i wun. once bitten. twice shy. u came too late into my life.

wad can i sae bout me. she says tt im too naive. she tells me tt i will haf to be emotionally independent. well. i think she's the one hu noes me best. she watched me grow. from this brainless stupid naive gal to this depressed idiotic dumb gal. no matter how i change. u'll nvr notice. will u? hah. wad a joke. wad a fool i made myself.

it juz goes to show tt pple like me cant survive out dere in the REAL world.

2005-10-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

so much for my happie ending.

u told me the story of the stars in the nightsky. u told me how happie u feel. to be under the nightsky. and now u left me alone. staring at the same sky. i juz feel like tearing away tt fake smile im wearing. i hate how much i changed. for you.

i was all alone for 10mins todae i think. looking at the starless sky. and i prayed so hard. for u to stay. u felt how hard i hugged u todae? bud i noe. no matter how hard i tried to grab u. i hafta let go in the end. im losing grip.

u think im upset over her and her only? u're very wrong. how does it feel to haf the whole world caving in ard u. and half the world standing by the side watching u and smirking. and half the world throwing all kinds of rubbish at u. i hate to indulge in self pity. so im not gonna let u see my tears. i never did. and i never will.

i dun see y i should smile.
i used to smile for u.

2005-09-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

the ugly fake smile.

~~is dere no one else.~~

2005-09-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

todae was happie dae. hurhur. everyone got back their prelim results. haha i got D7 for combined humans!!!=X rahhhh. speechless. so went KFC @ JEC cos zhiting wanna cut her hair. guess wad. her hair turned out to be SO FUNKY!!! omg. haha. and i wanted to praise the salon. so i went. this is called. hua fu xiu wei shen qi! (thankew i noe my chi rox!!!) then tong stared at my hair. so i swallowed my 2nd part of the statement back. im an exceptional case. bud HEY. im happie wif my tiny pony tail which is so MINI. MINI MINI MI MI NI NI. okie dunno wad im singing go read wang fu's mi ni qun lyrics. =X

boo. i hate to face it. tell me im a coward. i am one. i hate to noe the truth. im leaving u. i cant even hold on to u. for one sec. i see u walking away. i see ur hand slip away. i see my hands frantically waving. i see my tight desperate grip on the corner of ur shirt. i see u flick it off. i see where i stand. i see the beauty of letting go. i see ur smile.

maybe
it was me
i met u on this journey
and i thot u had the similar outlooks
so how wrong could i have been about this
we were looking out of different windows
it was only u and me
it was nvr
us

u were the source of my smile.

2005-09-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

OMG! YAGIRA YUYA!=) pretty boy!=) so todae was a slacky dae. went to sch juz to check c lit paper. rahhh. and we watched nobody knows before and after the checking of paper. YAGIRA YUYA!!!! im so depressed. jie di lian u noe. im older by 9 months. URGH. IF ONLY HE WAS BORN IN 1989!!! WHY CANT HIS MOTHER LIKE GET MARRIED ONE YR EARLIER? (haha ive moved on frm blaming MY mum to blaming HIS mum!! =DD) hahah. anw the show juz rocked. it turn out to be quite unpredictable. while pple took akira(YUYA!!!)'s sacrifices for the family in the first part for granted. the director chose to show how much akira longs for someone else's care and concern and hence the hanging out wif those GANGSTERS IDIOTS WHO PUSHED MY SHIGERU! erm maybe not mine. hahahahaha. he's juz a 12 yr old boy. haiz.

and oh my poor lil yuki. =( and the significance of the 1 coin found in the telephone booth. i love this movie.=) u need to think. and no its not boring.=) pretty boy!!! and i was SO depressed when tong went to check his bio and found out tt he was born in 26 march 1990. =( WHY!!!!!

hohoho. went to cut hair wif diana and zhiting todae. i haf a tiny pony tail!! =DDD im so happie lar. finally got rid of the birdnest!! =)

im still depressed cos im NOT born in 5 june 1990. =(

2005-09-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

finally changed my blogskin. hope tis fine. =)

2005-09-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

i love this kind of nights. starless and windy. i use to ask y arent there stars tonite. bud then again. how does it ever matter if the stars are dere. the night sky wun be brighter. no matter how hard the star tries to shine. a fruitless attempt. a fading moment.

sometimes i wonder if im a weirdo. my mum saes tt im stupid. my dad saes tt im too naive. both of them ensure me tt i will be cheated when i grow up. bud i wonder. if i loved u. will u feel it? i guess nobody will. bud im happie enuf to once haf u tell me tt i was special to u.

surprised? it has been so long. i dint mention anything bout u here. i dint msg u. im fading away frm ur world. i will be happie enuf if u tell me tt u noticed. pls dun sae anything. juz enjoy this night. i understand. u wish tt u could solve everyone's problems. tts y u were always dere when im unhappie. bud i rather u werent dere. at least i could be different frm others. cos i dint haf u by my side when i was upset. forgive me for my stupidness. i guess tts how much u meant to me.

i wish i had enuf courage. to stop u frm leaving. to tell u how much i love u. juz like how much u told me u loved me. bud i guess once i let u pass me by. i cant and i dun haf the right to ask u to stay anymore. i'll juz watch u frm afar. and pray tt ure happier this way.

zhu zu de kuai le jiao wo ren shou xin tong.

2005-09-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

sorry.

sorry. hu m i to do these things. hu m i to whine over my marks when pple are not doing well oso. hu m i to make them console me. i hate myself. i hate me. everything bout me. sorry. i would pay to turn back the time and not do wadeva i did. im sorry for everything. im sorry for those tears. u deserve more than my tears. im sorry.

i hate myself for being me.

2005-09-22T19:31:00.000+08:00

KBOX ROX! OUR SINGING ROX! =) so todae was kbox dae. hah! went wif yinhui liting xinling and jac. so we sang for 4 hrs!! =) mu dan jiang is SO NICE! and im proud to sae tt i managed to conquer bu de bu ai and mu dan jiang wif my fav singing partner yinhui!! =) i realised tt my pitch is too high. muz switch back to the normal mode. too much bu de bu ai made me too high (uh both this high and that high) heeh. =D

so tt's all bout todae! very tired. shall expand nxt time.=)

2005-09-21T16:13:00.000+08:00

YAY! prelims OVER! OMG! tell me where can i go wif 20++ points. lets go work at mac nxt yr.=) haha. so todae after our PRETTY phy paper we went coro de curry wok(i think so lar) to eat! so went wif liting yinhui tong amelia tc diana youxin xinling bekwuay vivien and zhiting. wow. class outing!=) happie. then eat eat eat. hah! then we went causeway pt. wanted to catch a movie bud all the timing so late lar so went to walk walk. saw this shop wif the make ur own teddy bear thingy. so cool can. and xinling was saying tt she wan her bf to get one for her. haha!

then we went home. realised tt spore is a boring dating place. hah! i wanna go escape if i can ever get to go out wif david tao! =D heeh! so we're going kbox tml! yay! and uh. if the windows break. lets juz hope tt liting brings enuf money.=D

was discussing smth wif xinling todae. which is worse: u dint noe tt time is so short and that u cant get hold of that particular thing and u grow to regret sometimes later OR u knew tt u haf no control over that particular thing and u watch it slip thru ur hands.

i think i prefer the previous one. i hate to indulge in self pity. that u think tt life is so unfair cos u cant haf tt thing. and u grieve over it every now and then. maybe i'll learn to treasure. bud hu knows if pressure is being mixed wif it. i hate the me hu sees thru things. i dun enjoy the life now tt im welcoming each dae wif the feeling tt i haf n daes left wif 4/10 and watching the dae pass wif the feeling tt all i can do is watch it pass me by and do nth bud treasure it.

ignorance is a virtue.

2005-09-17T10:55:00.000+08:00

SI LU!!!!! OMG! zen me hui you na me hao ting de ge.. go listen! i haf been waiting for this song. fish leong's new album si lu! si lu is written by wang lee hom. lyrics by ah xing frm mayday. im still listening to it now. the nth time le. hahah. okie. =) come to me if u dun haf money to buy her album/too lazy to search/wanna listen to me sing! heeh. i sing for u for free!! come ba come ba. haha.

wow. time flies. i dunno wad to sae. i dun wanna let her see my tears. all i can sae. is still.

bon voyage.

2005-09-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

hmm 3 more papers to go. =( urgh. anw life has been studying mugging pia-ing. haiz.. haha. c lit killed all of us. hahaha! my hand almost broke after c lit.. haha! yay! lets look forward to happie things! KBOX! liting yinhui and my wish to act high dere! i wanna sing david tao's songs until the glass windows/doors/tables/cups crack! =)

i knew it was coming. i knew it. bud i cant help pleading for more time. i dun wish to leave this juz yet. will u give me another chance to tell u how much u mean to me.

mayday's song rocked. and go listen to fish leong's si lu. its written by leehom lyrics by ah xing frm mayday. very nice! =)

uh. haf i ever mentioned tis before. i broke xiao ben's arm. =(

bon voyage.

2005-09-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

urgh. i hate log. =( haha. conclusion of the dae. anw. went lib todae wif mj and wt. i realised tt wo jia de alarm clock shi mei you yong de! =( woke up at 9 30. then reach at 10 3o lytt. awww. neo wei teng wore PINK again! =) heeh. okie no underlying meaning. =D pinkie. uh. =D i hear tong hua again. = nvm. anw. mj dun be upset. and dun worry bout me okie. im fine. at least until now. =) if things tt're happening can get me down i wun be here le. =) im so smileyish nowadays. y not. if ure happie show it. =)

went mac. missed yinhui/zhiting. found ultra long french fries! bud no one wanna play xing ren gan da kao yan wif me. nvm. =D and guess wad. JAC WAS JUZ OPP! haha. she was at KFC. and she saw me! yay! see shorties are still out standing. uh. y did i use the word shortie. = nvm. =) mj can realli eat mayo. she ate like uh 1++ packets. haha. i love curry sauce. i dun mind drinking them one dae if i cant afford a meal at mac. =)

have i ever mentioned tt chanel rox. heeh. so pretty. now my fav singer: DAVID TAO!!! tao zhe is SO talented can. go listen to his sha tan! =) heeh. if u dunno come find me i SING for u okie. my singing rox lar HOR liting. heeh. she'd suffered for n yrs le. now i found my new singing target. weiteng! she told me to sing for her. =) yay! and uh no. i cant sing the chi version of reach out for the skies. or wadeva the name is. heeh.

how much crap can one person take.
it aint fair at all.
for u.

2005-09-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

boo. I WANNA GO SWIMMING! =( bud somehow i dun dare to go alone. heeh. anw i juz realised tt darryl (proj superstar) veri ke lian. cos no one rmbered tt he oso going NS. doink. everyone onli rmbered derrick and weicong. tsk. fame arh fame. tsk tsk. = hahha. i realised tt weicong got like erm.. 5 frenster acc. all full. doink so erm 5 x 500 = 2500. FAINT LAR.. haha. nvm. =) holidaes are always my fav period of time. it makes me meditate on life. i realised tt u hafta let go of certain things in life. i rmbered tt there was once some body who said ( i cant rmb if the person is fictional not =X) anw. he/she/it said tt dun let ur love become a burden for tt somebody. let it be the strength for the person to fly. if someone else loves him/her/it more than u. then let ur love for him/her/it become ur gift for him/her/it. wo hui fang shou. rang ni zi you de fei. =)

hey. in case ure reading. i promised to write u smth. dun gif up juz yet. if u think tt ure going thru hell right now. keep the faith. keep walking. sometimes u hafta go thru hell to get to heaven. i noe life hasnt been exactly wonderful for u. bud trust me. dun gif up yet. im an onlooker. i cant tell u hu's right hu's wrong. bud i can tell u tt they care. avoiding them aint the best way out. it hides ur wound. bud like wad jac saes. not all scars show. if they dint care they wouldnt even sae/write/show anything. bud yes. sometimes u hafta let go. cos pple do change. and sometimes we change for the betta. yet we change to become somebody tt the person doesnt like. its nobody's fault. its juz life. u fall. u pick urself up. u move on. as heartless as it may sound. frens come and go. juz like me and her. i cant hold on to her. cos she has her own life to deal wif. and her own journey to carry on. i cant hold her down wif all my memories. letting go is not a decision. its a mark of life. its a phrase in life which everyone goes thru. i wish for u to be like a butterfly (even thou i HATE them) bud when u find urself all enclosed in sadness and depression. rmb. one dae u'll fly out. and u're even more beautiful than before. i pray for u to be strong. =)

hey u oso! im sorry k. i noe u hate it when i discuss tis kinda things wif u. bud i dun wanna see her so sad. and guess wad. i noe. even thou u dun show. ure affected by her too. not sad bud affected. cos i believe tt u care. i haf no evidence to prove tt u care. its juz me trusting u tt u care. cos i believe tt if u dint all these wun happen. =) hey sorry k.

i see the sky filled wif stars tonite.
are u dere looking at the same stars.

2005-09-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

i hate the way u see thru me. so wad if im not happie. u can still tell cant u. and u chose to do nth at all. i hate it when u pretend tt i wun be affected.

if u dunno and u hurt me it meant tt it was unintentional

if u noe it and u still choose to hurt me it meant tt u hate me

and guess wad.

i love u.

wo hen wo ai ni.

2005-09-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

hohoho. HOLIDAES! yay! =) MUG! urgh! =( dun like mugging. lets try cupping. DOTX! hahaha. =) anw last nite was superstar finals. im so geked over the results. bud then again. how does anything matter if chanel and weijian are alr out. shall keep my opinions to myself. =)

yay! todae was last dae of sch!!! =( ss killed me. awww. went west mall wif diana tc and youxin. we were eating happily in BK and toking bout sch life. and then we realised tt we wasted 10 yrs studying.. TEN YEARS!?!?!?! omg. im old. rahhh. wad's the pt lor. and i was telling diana tt if hong junyang becomes a singer. his NUS cert is kinda useless huh. =X nvm he's still smart and handsome. =) kelly poon is soooo compatible wif jj!! =) okie out of pt. then we went to shop for eoy presents. and we realised how broke we were/are/going to be. urgh. i need money. a lot of them. bought a pretty autograph book! =)

still disappointed over superstar results. bud wad can i do. lets juz hope tt weilian doesnt get too proud.

and oh. i need a whole lot of motivation to study. =(

2005-08-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

yay. im back. as in yar. im back! the happie me is back! =) i saw thru a lot of things todae. thx to kia and david tao! =D haha. wave byebye to the depressed me okie.. i was juz listening to david tao's xiao zhen gu niang. and i realised tt he rox can. he brought about a LOT of enlightenment. go read his lyrics. its so sad lar. like xiao zhen gu niang. he's upset yet he wrote tt he bu ming bai y he's so sad. he should fang kai cos the gal's happiness meant everything to him. and jin tian mei hui jia. the part bout him mei you jia. yet he's contented wif the life he's leading. i should learn frm him. =) and kia rox. she told me a lot of things. and i haf new insights to certain things. =)

JIA YOU FOR PRELIMS! i hope chem will be easy. =( and todae yinhui and me were trying to tiao zhan our ji xian. like sing HIGH.. so high lar. trying to hit the gal's note. the gal in bu de bu ai wif wilber pan. omg we were soooo tired can.. she's like SOOOO high lar.. we almost died. haha. then she tried to hit low wif david tao's melody. and we both tried ou ruo la. haha. i sing like almost one octave higher. and we tried yi shi de mei hao too.. haha. and we're going kbox! heeh. shh. later the kbox window crack then u noe hu's the culprit(s) haha. anw lets treasure the times we haf. and jac totally rox lar. =) she'll be my bridesmaid when i marry william tanoto!!! =DDD he rox can. =) yay! think i wun be coming online until after prelims. heeh. dun miss me! (like hu m i toking to. shrugs) heeh.. =)

2005-08-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

alone at home.

yar u can go on too. tell me more bout how ur parents neglect u. tell me more bout how u think ur sister sux cos she always whines to get their attention. tell me more bout how u think u rather u dun haf them wif u. tell me more.

i hate the way life throws things at me.

i cant handle them. tell me. which part of my life u think rocked. im failing physics. and im so gonna screw up my prelims. she's not gonna care. tts y she's leaving. u watched home alone? u can join me in tis movie. where im the lead. and i'll pay to be in UR shoes.

i hate the way pple decides things for me.

u sae let go. i haf no sae. okie let go. u sae u wun be dere for me to rely on. okie i shall stand on my own. maybe im used to it. i noe im destined to be a loner. no one should get close to my heart. im not gonna let anyone noe anything bout me now. i dun wanna appear weak. u told me u care. thx then. i dun need ur 'i care' i can stand and wave byebye. how does anything matter to u. nth. nth bout ME matters to u.

i hate the way i think.

tts it. i hate me. i hate the naive me. i think pple care. so how many realli care. i noe all the suaning and stuff r not supposed to be frm their heart. bud too much of them poisons my heart. i noe i suck. u dun hafta remind me every now and then. maybe i should juz stop entertaining myself. i suck. stop it. i suck.

so wad if u think tt u care.

wad r u.

to me.

now u think u noe me?
think again.

2005-08-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

yar go on. im kinda immune to wad ure going to sae. im insecure. i fear much. bud tell me. wad realli makes u think tt ure treating me well. i hate the way u sae one thing and do the other. tt makes me feel like the ultimate fool on earth. u told me to tell u stuff. how can i. when ure always toking to everyone else bud me. i noe where i stand.

maybe its juz me.
i shouldnt haf even thot tt i was ever in any ways significant to u.

it was always u and me.
it was nvr us.

2005-08-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

ihatethewayuhidethingsfrmme.

y cant u juz be direct. do i hafta guess wad u wan always. i hate tis. i hate the kinda feeling ure giving me. im scared. im insecure. do u care. stop telling me u do. u should noe wad'll make me happie and wad'll make me upset. so stop telling me tt ure doing things to make me happie when u noe it as much as i do tt it'll upset me. can i juz sae i hate u. rahhhh. stop making me guess. anything. everything. i dun wanna noe anything.

2005-08-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

when i spend half my life searching for smth.

and neglected everything.

so much for a word. sorry.

will i still haf a thousand years to live.

to continue taking u for granted.

maybe one dae i will regret.

so now its u and me.

here in tis world.

telling me.

u love me.

i will be strong.

for those hu love me.

and those i love.

every cloud has a silver lining.

i will find the courage one dae.

ure the best thing tt ever happened to me.

i love u.

2005-08-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

life sux. hmm. it does? maybe it does. i dunno how to tell u. maybe im not tt comfortable telling pple how i feel too. i hope tt u noe. i care. u said everyone is going in a cycle. im one sided ure too. i dun mind. so long as i can see u smile. it sounds stoopid. bud i think u noe how i feel. cos u were in my shoes too. i can pick myself up. i dint tell u todae. i dunno how to tell u face to face. juz like how u wait for ur her. i hope tt u noe tt somewhere out dere. someone is always smiling cos u smiled. and waiting for u to realise tt she cares. a lot.

i dun dare to sae tt i appreciate everyone round me. maybe dere're pple out dere hu loves me too. wo bu gan she qiu. maybe its not wad i should haf. maybe i'll juz spend my life giving. bud i dun mind. i see her smile. i hear her cry. i noe she's letting her emotions out. bud where can she fa qie. i dun mind being a spare tyre. if tt makes her happier.

ou de yang's song totally rox. i love the song. the lyrics to be exact. chu le ni shui you zi ge jue ding ni shi xi sheng zhe. =)

yinhui is my part time angel. weiyi is my lil angel. kia is my pretty angel. wad more can i ask for. sorry if i neglected the most impt thing in my life. thx mj for those times when u call up me to ask if im okie. i noe u get tired sometimes. bud im contented juz knowing tt someone cares.

can i juz ask to be someone to care for u. lemme be ur angel too.

im stoopid. bud its becos u deserve wadeva im doing now.

im a nobody.

yet i haf pple hu loved me.

im somebody in someone's heart. =)

2005-08-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

the one and onli question to ask: wad if i die tml..

will u regret not telling me u love me..

i love u

2005-07-31T16:58:00.000+08:00

wow.. todae went imm.. to buy my portfolio stuff.. and guess wad.. i sun bian go and see see the superstar thingy.. haha.. then i cheekily told zt tt i'll be going imm.. hohoho.. =D and im still much saddened by the fact tt weichoong is out of the superstar thingy.. haha.. almost the whole class hates jason tan.. except for youxin hu loved him.. hahaha.. oh and derrick is sooo cute.. =D rahhh.. im so stressed.. first is the toopid pimple prob.. i hate my bed.. now my whole face is covered wif red lil pimples!! =( nvm.. i'll be okie.. soon.. rahhh.. then its prelims.. im sooo sooo soo scared.. i muz go for oral practices often.. = i haf no life.. when pple r going swimming on weekends and movies on sundaes.. i juz realised tt it has been ages since i last went imm.. tt was like n months ago? on my bdae.. hahaha.. kill me.. stabs myself.. and i feel so loved.. =D he made me smile.. rahhh! hahaha.. i shall go pia portfolio.. and mo ri zhi lian rox.. now i noe how to sing!! even without mo ren teaching me.. ahahha! =)

2005-07-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

take me away.

i love yinhui u noe.. i realli do.. i love how she suans me.. how she bullies me.. how she geks me.. and how she indirectly make me feel so special.. i love how she tells me tt my handwriting sux and gimme the look when i stare at her.. =)

i love liting u noe.. i love how she makes me feel happie.. i noe how she sees tt im upset and asks other pple if im okie.. i love how i feel like crying when i see her.. cos i noe she wun run away frm me.. leaving me to stand on myself.. =)

i love youxin u noe.. i love how she diaos me.. and hear frm bek tt she doesnt noe how to roll her eyes.. and how she saes tt rolling her eyes r juz for me.. at least im diff.. in some way or another.. im diff frm others in youxin's heart.. =)

i love majun u noe.. i love how she always calls me up even thou it meant tt she'll hafta listen to me crap for hrs.. and how she tells me tt she loves me.. even thou it'll always come wif some lame jokes.. u make me think tt xing xing doesnt sound tt bad after all.. =)

i love kia u noe.. i love how she tells me tt she's sorry for not being the first to noe im upset.. bud without fail making me feel tt she cares.. i love how she tells me tt she wanna be jian qiang to protect me and how i can dun be jian qiang when im upset.. =)

i love charm u noe.. i love how she notices me even when some pple hu told me tt they care dint.. i love how she told me to read her blog becos she wanted to gif me the strength to go on.. and how special she made me feel.. =)

i love xinling u noe.. i love how she makes me smile by saying tt everyone loves me even thou i noe tts not the case.. thx.. i realli dint noe wad to sae.. bud u made my dae by telling me tt u care.. thx.. wad more can i ask for.. =)

fly.. to the place where u should be.. i dun wanna be the one holding u down.. its ur life.. live it the way u wan it.. even if it means tt i dun get to participate in it.. i love u.. and i wish to protect u.. leave and live.. =)

2005-07-16T10:29:00.000+08:00

w0w.. im veri much affected by wad we did during eng lesson.. ABORTION! not tt i love abortion.. i think its veri fun to look at.. w0w.. m i too affected by zhiting.. =X i will rmb wad mrs lee said.. one dae we'll look back at these few eng lessons and rmb wad we used to sae bout abortion.. hmmm..

abortion.. hmmm.. wad izzit exactly.. i stared at kylie's ppt tt dae.. at those pictures.. perhaps im more affected cos my mum aborted my younger brother.. hu'll be 14 tis yr.. so im veri much regretful.. and wad if she aborted me instead.. will i be like the baby in the picture? with its head on the left and limbs on the rite.. hmm.. see? if we see a grown up being torn apart we'll accuse the murderer of being brutal.. how bout the mother hu agreed to abortion and the doctor hu performed the surgery? abortion.. wad izzit exactly..

so hu realli controls our fate.. ourselves? i doubt so.. it juz feels so weak to be living bud not able to control anything in ur life.. gary tang saes tt wad u see is wad u get.. i dun agree.. i see the clouds.. do i get them? hmm.. some things in ur life juz slip thru ur hands.. when u thot u finally got hold of them..

im gonna be jian qiang.. like i promised kia and mj.. and myself.. i hate to cry.. bud tt dumb mole under my eye makes me prone to crying.. haha.. =) i will be jian qiang.. and i will protect those i love.. so i can protect them..

and oh.. dun go for abortions! =D

2005-07-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

ahaha! ive got an aching finger! =) i kinda like scratched myself while i was bathing tt particular dae.. i think dere's smth wrong wif me.. im pissing pple off unintentionally.. im so sorry.. im juz not myself recently.. crying over the slightest thing like having heat stroke.. i ought to be strong.. yuxing is a strong gal! =) na li die dao jiu chong na li pa ji lai! i can do it de.. yay.. and prelims r sooooooo gonna come.. and i dun quite like the idea of making popiahs again.. y not sushi? hahaha.. its healthier.. and tastier.. althou i wanna be popiah stall auntie when im in my fifties.. =DD tc's steve jobs speech inspired me too.. and i rmbered wad a lot of pple used to tell me.. and wad i used to tell myself.. wad if i die tml.. i'll haf a lot of regrets.. i dun wanna live each dae as if i still haf a few millions yrs to live.. i muz learn frm now to appreciate everything ard me..

and er.. hahaha.. ek has a BEN GOU! =D

live everydae as thou its the last..

i wun hesitate to tell anyone i love that..

i love u...

2005-07-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

rahh.. todae was youth dae! =) so happie! so went sch todae wif pretty lil cards made by me last nite while watching the project superstar results show.. OMG! hoh wei jian got out.. like so irritating.. he sang so well.. =( luckily got revival round.. okie out of topic.. then liting was so farni.. she wore sch skirt!! and sch shoes.. and i was laughing like a mad woman.. lalalala.. bud she so cute.. =) then got the shava dance.. then got funfair! so fun!!! i was walking ard selling flowers and cards and cookies to everyone.. and xinyi almost killed me cos she bought cookies frm me and xinling then realised tt we were frm the same class.. lalala.. =) and neo wei teng rox! cos she bought a lot of stuff!!! bought nice earrings wif liting.. then mixed them.. and went youxin's hse wif zhiting tc xinling tricia bek siheng fandi tong and youxin(duh) hahaha.. so fun!!! was singing lao shu ai da mi.. then youxin showed us the eng version.. i love u.. loving u.. like the mouse love the rice.. DOTS.. like direct translation.. = hahahaha.. so happie!!!!!

then went sch.. met jac liting amelia and kylie.. like everyone else is so pretty except youxin xinling liting and me hu were still in our class tee and stinky.. NO I DUN STINK!! =( kylie saes tt i stink.. hahah maybe she dint.. =D lalala.. okie i tell u wad.. i like totally dun understand mulan.. muz be i too dumb.. bud i hate gary tang lar.. like so dumb.. he dunno wad is called a play meh.. go watch play still muz interpret wad he wanna show.. hmphhh... bully pple like me.. like i was like.. O.O finish le arh.. okie lor.. hahah then we went to backstage to find shum.. then couldnt find.. so we went out.. then one whole bunch of pple came rushing.. then we were like w0w.. so i bu yao lian de shuo le yi ju.. xie xie wo jiu shi na ge yan mulan de! hahaha.. then youxin punched me real hard.. hahaha..

i proposed to ek!!! in the grand audi!! and she was soooo happie! then i went out find shum and propose to her again.. in front of ek!! hahahahaha.. 4/10 rox lar.. then i was so dumb can.. tong was like i wanna take wif shum!! then she pose.. shum pose.. everyone waited.. then i waited too.. then i happily switched off my cam.. then everyone started oi-ing me.. then i realised tt they were waiting for me to take the pix.. =

so went to eat roti prata wif ek youxin liting zhiting tong suan woo karen.. we were trying hard to wink.. the psst psst wink thingy.. hahahah.. =D so farni youxin kept making me laugh until i drop.. hahah.. then i almost wanted to punch her.. yay.. 4/10 rox.. last youth dae wif them.. i think i'll miss them.. i'll miss all these pple.. charm is guarantee going to hc le.. dsa.. well.. how bout the rest.. now i wish ny realli had ip for us all.. so we wun leave each other.. =( anw.. treasure the times we haf now.. every moment of it..

go to http://community.webshots.com/user/xinglovesu for photos!

2005-07-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

i saw u alone

i thot u were feeling alone

i hope u werent alone thinking alone

i wished i was the one to erase alone frm ur world

now i noe u were nvr alone by urself

u had her hu loved u as much

now i could leave

alone

2005-07-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

HEY BUY PRETTY LIL FLOWERS! SUPPORT 4/10!!! BUY OUR HANDMADE PRETTY CARDS! WHEEE!

hyper.. anw.. saw tis bulletin posted by richard on frenster.. it makes a lot of sense.. how many of us r too busy wif our lives tt we forgot bout the reason for saying i love u.. and wad does love realli mean.. izzit juz a four letter word.. i wish i could tell u i love u.. okie out of topic.. =D and hurhur.. june hols r veri much over and i realli understood a lot of things.. =)

a grp of professional pple post this question to a grp of 4 to 8 year-olds,

"What does love mean?"

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."Billy - age 4

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy -age 6 (so true.. tt was wad my mum used to do)

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."Danny - age 7

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"Nikka - age 6 (tis lil kid here noes how to love more than majority of the teenagers and adults in the whole world)

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4 (tis so true.. juz like how i used to be so happie when my mum comes home frm work when i was young)

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."Jessica - age 8

i kinda think tt pple lose the ability to love after they grow up.. firstly they're veri scared tt they dun receive as much as wad they give.. so they stop giving.. cos they dun wanna be taken advantage of.. so tis isnt true love isnt it.. love is bout giving others all ur french fries without expecting them to do the same.. how many pple can understand.. how many can gif their french fries to other juz becos they think tt the person they loved look so happie eating fries.. not becos they are too full or anything practical..

"Love is juz about u making fun of how he looked in his new shirt, yet he still wears it in front of u cos u bought it for him." xing - age 16.

2005-06-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

whee! first dae of sch rox! =) todae was fun lar! and my ezlink no money.. was living in poverty.. =( and mr lim's geog lessons r not tt interesting after all.. =S hohoho.. and he called me jade heart.. thx har.. and i realised tt 2nd recess hen neng ao.. so i decided to bring my book to sch to read.. =) i love reading.. esp after yinhui gave me tt book.. hoho then it was chem lab.. AHEM.. stoopid neo wei teng.. like she happily walk pass the lab.. then she was like saying smth which i cannot hear.. so i veri hao xin.. hey i was hao xin okie.. and curious lar.. geminis r curious.. hmphh.. then i open the window.. then she.. mei you zhuan xin ting ke or smth lytt.. !!!!!!!! gek arhhhhhhh... da lan chong! gek si wo.. and another geking person is chen zhi ting!!!! gek si wo.. stabs myself.. exploit labour! ask me buy wad one packet of potato chips then pizza then sausage.. ikjdsbfgskdgk! and nvr hand in binomial theorem wkst! hahaha.. okie life is exciting! =)

2005-06-23T18:44:00.000+08:00

haha.. june holidaes ending le.. sigh.. and i haven finish my hw load.. like A LOT LAR.. =( depressed.. i cant seem to finish math.. like hu was the one hu sae tt we muz finish the whole stack by prelims? okie tt was me.. =( im a shi bai math rep.. urgh.. and i was watching jue dui superstar last nite.. the blind man realli make me so touched by his singing.. so rude to call him tt.. so i went to learn his name.. weilian! =D he sang zhang xin so perfectly wif another contestant.. =) pretty pple sing pretty songs.. erm.. hah.. =)

2005-06-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

oh well.. down wif flu and cough.. =( went kbox ytd wif kia! and i sang horribly.. and oh.. yinhui.. i sound like fish leong again! now u noe how terrible my voice is.. haha.. not tt fish leong has a terrible voice.. whee.. =)

and oh.. zhen de shi huai le.. jiu bu xu yao zai shuo chu lai le.. =)

i never had a dream come true
until the dae tt i found u

2005-06-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

woosh.. haven blog for SOOO long.. anw i love the show man.. xian jian qi xia zhuan.. and the songs rox lar.. veri nice.. =) wow.. and all the actors/actresses so young.. like hurhur.. one 1987 one 1988.. WAHHH.. =S and haha liu ping yan is 08-08-1988.. yinhui's dream birthdate! =) 8-8-88.. lalala.. hahah peng yu yan so shuai! =DD oh anw after few daes of locking myself at home.. actualli shi grounded lar.. haha.. realised the things tt i realli wan.. hoho.. the lines in the show make sense okie.. love is always unfair.. when i xia ding jue xin to love sumone.. i muz be prepared.. it'll be unfair.. =) i noe ure veri much irritated by wad i said todae.. i feel unfair too.. tis how i feel lar.. like i lend u u bu shuang for wad.. then i veri angry.. bud i still asked u if u were unhappie.. cos i realli dun wanna be the source of ur anger.. maybe pple will sae tt im weird siao crazy.. bud well.. tis juz me.. yuxing.. =) i can be a fool bud its still me.. i should be myself rite..

all along ive been chasing after some unrealistic dream.. trying to be like sumone else.. writing sentimental depressing things.. juz to be like sumone else.. and after chasing after another person's shadow called sadness.. i realised tt my shadow is always following me.. a shadow called happiness.. im juz me.. a happie cheerful and carefree person.. so i should love myself for hu i m.. dere's no such thing as cool depressness.. okie im making words up again.. =)

i noe.. i may look crazy bud i noe.. im nvr no1 on ur list.. im nvr no1 on anyone's list.. bud its okie.. the no1 on anyone's list hurts tt sumone most deeply.. i dun wish to hurt anyone.. i noe the bitterness.. okie maybe the small voice in me is asking me if anyone cares.. so wad.. as long as i haf no regrets giving.. =) no one cares bout the candle tt burns itself so tt pple can obtain light.. bud at least the candle finished its lifelong assignment.. the beauty of tis world lies within those hu gives yet not expect anything in return.. im not saying im one of them.. i hope i can be one of them.. maybe it hurts.. bud if its wad im called to do in tis world.. im willing to go thru all the pain.. juz to see u smile.. =)

i noe how she feels.. and her and her.. im beginning to feel more and more like i noe everyone.. i noe it when pple onli tok to me when they need help.. when they sae hi onli becos it's my bdae.. when they sae they love me onli when im sad.. bud im thankful enuf for all tt God has given me.. its fair enuf.. i still love my mum.. my dad.. and everyone.. maybe when i search for the ans to my question.. i'll realise tt.. soon..

2005-06-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

IM SUCHA FREAKING PIG! my brain storage is like 0.00000000000000001 kb.. im a pig.. so woke up todae wif the determination.. im so not gonna apply for DSA.. then mj called.. then i.. hoho.. went to write my personal statement.. im sucha pig.. i dragged until todae!!! can u believe it.. im sooooooooo dumb!!! =S retarded pig.. so was rushing and went out at 3.25.. then ran out.. realised tt i nvr bring passport size foto.. then urgh run back.. stick foto.. dash out.. sprinted wif speed of 1000000000000000000km/s.. erm actualli not tt fast.. then took bus at 3.30.. happily thot tt i can make it.. then realised after 5 busstops tt i forgot to bring my report book.. then alighted.. then run back.. then take run out again.. managed to reach at 4.30.. then saw joanne and eunice.. haha.. then eunice veri cute.. i was complaining to joanne bout my dumbness.. then eunice was like.. OMG.. i dint bring my passport size foto!!! then im like O.O bei ju you chong yan le.. haha.. =X

so waited at the busstop wif eunice and joanne for eunice's fren weilin to come.. im like the onli one wearing ny uniform.. even thou i wore pe tee.. oops.. haha.. bud the thing is.. i dint zap the documents.. so none of us handed in todae.. = so the person gave us until tml 9am.. ohohoh.. im so piggish! =( nvm mei tian hui gen hao.. so we left and i saw jackyek and jasline! then we walked home and they were thinking bout where to go.. they decided on changi.. o.o and they wanted to go weiteng's hse.. and asked if i wanna go.. haha.. =D weiteng will lock me out or chase me out wif a broom.. awww.. my lil fragile heart.. nice weiteng.. gif me lollipops.. =) and i said tt i dun like weiteng le.. oops.. =D heehee.. so we waved byebye and i wondered how r they going to go changi frm sch.. im a lu chi yar.. =)

anw im juz veri urgh-ed nowadays.. maybe becos of her and wad she said/wrote.. nvm.. i'll pick myself up.. wif mj's kisses and weiteng's lollis.. and everyone of my classmates who rocks! hopefully i will.. =)

2005-06-05T19:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE TO YUXING! =)

okie im lame.. im so happie.. im juz touched.. =) slpt at 12++ tis morning.. haha.. i mean midnite.. =DD received all ur blessings.. =) veri touched.. realli.. then left house at 8.25.. happily thot tt i'll reach early.. then the toopid bus dun wanna come.. i waited for 22mins.. haha.. im calculative.. oops.. calculating.. =) reached and went to harbourfront wif mj weiteng liting and yinhui.. =) then reached harbourfront.. met up wif labi kia huitian tong and cheresa.. =DD ek kc shizhen and yingxu were at palalalalalalawan (XD) beach le.. so we waited for yingna while labi mj cheresa weiteng left first.. so yingna came and off we go to sentosa!! =DD reached palawan beach and i was veri touched lar.. maybe im juz a pig which doesnt noe how to express myself.. bud i realli realli realli wanna sae tt u guys rock lar.. =) and kylie was dere! pig.. bluff me.. =D and they put up the banner.. thankew..

played vball then decided to go cycling wif kylie weiteng shizhen yingxu tong mj and liting.. the me mj shizhen and liting decided to skate.. erm.. i fell twice.. MALU! =X anw.. i was even slower than a lil boy riding a lil bicycle.. =D and mj rox for pei-ing me and teaching me for 1 hr.. my butt still hurts.. =DD then went to buy big gulp.. drink drink drink.. so nice.. and went to the tall tower wif yinhui and liting.. i love them.. and weiteng kylie and yingxu came to join us after tt and they left wif shizhen..

so i went to bath wif mj.. bud onli mj bathed.. i waited for her outside.. and we ate potato chips and we bought the super big gulp.. sooper nice lar.. then we played vball again and we left sentosa.. it was 4 and we thot tt we can go eat smth at harbour front.. bud urgh.. toopid.. there were so many pple lar.. and we reached harbour front at 5.. thx har.. and i bought notebook wif yinhui and liting.. nice pple wif same notebook! do math!! i love everyone!!

THANK YOU PPLE!

BERNICE -- im so sorry.. i hope ur sis dint scold u or anything.. thx for being sucha sweet la bi.. glad tt we went to shanghai.. and i realli dint dian huitian! =)

CHERESA -- thx for coming.. sorry tt u got weird weird pple staring at u.. we protect u! =)

EK -- SI!! i love u to tiny tiny bits.. u're so rockish.. thx for spending 4 hrs on the banner.. i love it a lot.. i dint expect it.. so im realli touched.. thankew.. and thx for singing 2 bdae songs for me.. muacks!

HUITIAN -- thx for coming.. and for being the cute huitian hu makes us smile.. =)

KAREN -- thx for the banner too.. u ran off before i caught u to sae bye.. bud thx for being so enthu bout my bdae! lets get married again.. haha tts veri lame.. =)

KIA -- thx for being so nice to me.. and being dere for me.. u're a great listener! and thx for ur necklace.. its so nice! and thx for remembering wadeva i've told u.. thx for msging me at 12 to wish me happie birthdae.. i hope u dint stay up too late.. and thx for the eeyore! it rox.. juz like kia.. i think its feels so nice being wif u.. =) thx kia..

KYLIE -- thx for coming even thou ure sick.. and thx for listening to me when im sad.. im so shi bai.. im onli a trouble maker a problem generator.. bud u were always dere.. i dun wan to part wif u.. bud i noe i haf to.. hope u'll be happie always.. i will always look at the clouds and rmb how u used to wave to me frm dere.. if toking to other pple makes u happier.. dun needa bother bout me.. i juz wan u to be happie.. =)

LITING -- i dunno wad to sae.. u've been my best bud for years.. and i realli wanna sae i appreciate the times i spend wif u.. im realli veri grateful when u helped me when they mass suan me on the mrt todae.. =) ur shoulder is the bestest i've ever borrowed.. thankew.. i hope tt u can be happie always.. thankew thankew thankew for making an effort to come down.. i cant sae tis to u face to face.. bud thx for coming.. even thou tt meant tt u hafta work for ur mum..

MAJUN -- hey.. wad can i sae bout u.. u juz rock my world!! u were dere when i was upset.. u called to listen to my rubbishly irritating depressed speeches.. haha.. =D i love u and i noe u love me too.. thx for teaching me how to skate todae.. even thou it took u an hr.. even thou u could haf went off wthout me.. i realli appreciate the times when u tell me tt its okie.. even if no one loves me.. i still haf u.. thx.. =) i noe our hearts r mixed tog..

TONG -- hey thx for calling me a darling! =) thx for coming to sentosa.. i realli appreciate the things tt u do for me.. and ur lil notes too.. u're so sweet tt im getting diabetes.. =)

VIVIEN -- haha.. hey yingna.. thx for rushing down to sentosa.. and thx for the small lil msges and letters to ask if im alrite.. thankew for everything tt u've done.. i noe u love me even thou u'll deny it.. i love u too.. thx for the tiramisu..

WEITENG -- thx for ur letter..and ur frequent supplies of lollipops.. im a pig.. i dunno how to react to ur letter.. so i appear weird in front of u.. bud im glad tt i received ur letter.. and its rainbowish.. juz wanna sae tt i realli realli am thankful tt i got to noe u.. maybe u wun tell me tt u love me outright bud i can feel tt u care.. hope im not wrong lar.. =D hoho.. and hmm.. sorry for the times when im acting autistic.. thankew.. for juz being weiteng..

YINHUI -- thx angelic yinhui.. i noe tt many a times u are always suaning me.. bud u nvr fail to bring a smile on my face when im sad and feeling lonely.. thankew for everything u've done.. frm the hersheys to the book.. im glad tt ive got to noe u betta tis yr.. i wouldnt want to leave ny without yinhui in my memories.. =) thx for being so nice and sweet.. i'll read tt book.. definitely!

2005-06-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

wheeeee.. todae was china forum.. so fun! after packing 576 files.. we hafta be the av reps.. reached sch at 7.. saw zhiting.. we were looking at the tchr's profiles.. =) winks.. haha.. then we went into the audi to listen to the tok.. i was mood swinging.. = haha.. and was acting autistic again.. okie tis can be my zhao pai dong zhuo.. =) was juzing thinking some stuff.. =) after tt went popular wif zt labi and mj.. then we went to our venues.. and me and zt got board room.. so we were having tis dumb singing contest.. then we got so sianed of each other so we decided to sneak to labi and mj's room.. and me and mj sang while zt lamed us all.. okie yi qian ling yi ye rox lar.. =) i love it i love it.. sing to me sing to me! so i sang and zt did the actions.. hah.. we were self entertaining.. rubbishly fun lar.. haha.. =)

then we went for tea break.. haha.. we were looking foward to tt onli.. how hungry can we get.. then saw kia! haha.. i suck.. i dun think i wanna apply for DSA le.. haha.. =) then we went back.. and listen to tis tok.. i fell aslp thrice.. erm.. haha.. i realised tt the speaker likes bras a lot.. o.o ermm.. haha.. =DD and me and zt were dying to get out.. bud they kept asking questions.. and they actualli sat down and looked as if they still wanna continue to tok.. so we were like.. =( aww.. then seah hui yong saw and she's so nice.. let us go eat! =)

lunch was buffet.. and i totally dun like the idea of wasting so much food.. u noe fei zhou de xiao hai lian bee hoon dou mei you mah.. so wasteful.. zhe shi bu dui de.. tsk.. =( then we went back.. tis time we got grace chua and shirlene tieh.. its so interesting.. and we spotted our pix in the ppt.. =) i love shanghai.. i miss everyone.. heehee.. then we went for tea break again.. y r we always eating.. haha.. okie so we had the closing tok and debrief.. i love the sch lar actualli.. =)

oh and did i mention tt tan kylie rox.. she does.. dun msg anymore.. =)

and zhiting is zen ru hua frm todae onwards

and my name wang hua ru..

mj is ma hua xian ti

todae is 3 june.

=)

2005-06-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

todae is quite fun.. thx weiteng majun cynthia for the prezzie.. its veri huggish.. thx weiteng.. althou ur com crash dun think u can see.. u made me cry! =( thx.. i realli dunno wad else to sae.. i dint noe.. =) ur hands r nice even without me saying.. and thx mj.. i realli realli dunno wad to sae.. i was realli touched when u put ur hand in front of me todae on the bus.. u dunno how much the "wo pa ni de tou zhuang dao" mean to me.. thx pple.. u make me smile while crying.. =) i dunno if its good now tt im so sensitive and emotional.. i get affected so easily.. bud if being sensitive makes me feel ur love.. i dun mind.. =)

we did NE quiz! im the expert builder! anw after tt we had to help out for the china forum thingy tml.. and mr khoo is lame.. like VERI lame.. haha.. =D me and liting were trying to carry stacks of paper to LT.. =D and we worked in the GO.. and we realised tt GO de environment bu cuo.. =X haha.. we're doing labour intensive work for the secondary industries.. =S hahah.. okie nvm.. lemme write some sentimental stuff below.. bear wif me!!

i dunno how im feeling now.. im a spare tyre cum listener cum sad gal.. 3 in 1.. coffee tea or me.. ermm.. haha.. im like yinhui shang sheng nowadays.. i leng myself and roll my eyes at myself.. haha.. i love happie life.. its juz so heartaching to hear her sae those stuff todae.. all along i thot tt no one cares bout me im juz a spare tyre in pple's lives.. bud she juz asked me todae.. y izzit tt u nvr once cry over me.. i did dear.. i realli did.. bud how does tt matter.. even if u saw.. would u do anything.. the most u could do is to tell me not to be sad.. im so sorry.. for making u think tt i dun care.. i do.. maybe it was my fault all along.. i should learn to be appreciative.. i should.. i ought to.. hold u when ure walking away..

im afraid.. im afraid of approaching u.. im scared.. im insecure.. i dunno when will u stand up and walk away frm me.. i dunno.. i dunno wad u wan.. i dun even think tt u liked me in the first place.. maybe it was my fault.. believing tt we were frenz..

im a spare tyre for u.. i knew it.. bud wad can i sae.. i noe how u feel.. and i noe how it feels to haf someone to tell u tt she loves u.. i wanna be someone to gif u hope.. even thou i noe im juz a spare tyre for her.. its okie.. as long as i can see u smile.. even if the smile is nvr for me.. =) ur happiness will always be for her.. ur sadness too..

so wad m i realli.. im always searching for tis ans.. maybe i'll noe it.. bud i hafta go thru much pain.. its okie.. u hafta to be hurt to learn.. i hafta step into tis trap be4 i noe its a trap.. bud i still believe.. and will continue to believe in..

every cloud has a silver lining' '

2005-05-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

wheee! todae was fun! it was supposedly the first dae of the june holis.. bud well.. sec 4s arent supposed to haf june holidaes.. we're supposed to mug hard.. hah.. bud its so exciting lar.. was telling jac and youxin bout the shutter todae.. and bek was saying tt i dint watch half the show.. hah.. oops.. bud its so farni.. esp the can i poo first part.. wahahhaa.. like totally doink lar.. =D and todae we had 1 hr 15min lessons!! c lit was as fun as eva.. like wif zt!! =S er i sound like yinhui.. haha.. physics was a killer.. killed me.. we were learning ac generator.. then liting took out her long time nvr use thread.. and i help her untie.. then i cheekily put the thread ard her neck.. then mdm toh was like.. hui si ren neh.. then im like O.O then i tried to cover my face.. like so malu lar.. then liting was kuang xiao-ing.. = then i bu pa si.. i did it again.. then suay suay mdm toh turn back again.. = ARGHHHH.. =( hahaha.. mdm toh muz be thinking tt im mad.. now i wonder wad will my tchr recommandation for DSA will be.. yuxing is NOT recommanded for DSA to HCI.. = hahah.. =D

then we were toking bout CME.. and liting was biting her pencil.. then me and youxin stared.. cos she bit off smth.. then we saw her chew chew.. then take out.. it was a tiny part of the plastic cap.. like HAHAHA.. then me and youxin kept kuang xiao-ing.. then yinhui stare.. bud it was so rubbishly farni.. haha.. I BLOGGED BOUT TIS.. to think liting dared me to blog bout tis.. haha.. obviously i will rite.. haha.. bud liting is still my most beloved liting.. =) and youxin treated us to happie hippo! =)

we went coro!! woohoo.. wif vivien xinling zhiting jac youxin yinhui.. haha.. so farni.. yinhui was trying to irritate me.. like i was saying tarzan is a gorilla.. then haven finish saying lar.. then yinhui was like yar tarzan a gorilla then ure a chimpanzee.. = thx arh.. haha.. bud yinhui rox.. she going sentosa! even thou she got piano in the morning! =) muack muack.. and youxin rox.. her mum came coro to look for her.. then her mum so nice.. we were trying to tell her tt we paid le.. then shui zhi dao she paid for us.. then MY IDEA! i was saying pay youxin back the money.. then vivien sae youxin will si tun.. o.o hahah.. so farni.. and if ure wondering how come my life is so interesting.. tis the 4/10 spirit! as in erm.. spirit.. hahahah.. XD

i love 4/10! =) i wish prelims will nvr come.. i dun wanna part wif everyone.. =(

2005-05-27T19:24:00.000+08:00

wheeee.. life is fun!! =) todae was supposedly the last dae of school.. bud bleagh.. we still haf extra lessons nxt week.. bud wang ye is sweet.. thx for the nice nice card and nice nice bear.. uh it so doesnt look like her.. it looks more like ye! =) love u love u!!! and my mid yr results juz suck lar.. 14.. where can i go wif 14.. like sajc? now i can realli go sa.. bleagh.. hohoho.. bud sa still my dream school.. =DD okie so we got C for class cleanliness.. erm.. like wad tc said.. hu empties dustbins during 1st recess? urgh.. nvm.. 4/10 still rox..

watched the shutter.. i tell u.. tt was my first time watching a horror movie.. and it'll be the last time.. the actor was veri shuai thou.. so shuai.. bud i dun like.. cos he veri mean to the ghost.. as in be4 she died.. poor ghost.. =( haiz.. not her fault.. actualli its sorta the guy bring it upon himself.. shui jiao ta so coward.. i think his frens should die thou.. haha.. okie nvm.. peace! =DD okie so i erm.. missed out half the movie as bek wuay saes.. i was covering my eyes.. =D and hiding behind eK.. erm.. maybe is eK hide behind me i hide behind my knees.. and when mj came she cling onto me too.. bud IM THE ZUI PA DE.. imagine i can scream when i watch constantine.. so im a dan xiao gui lar.. bud watching horror movie is fun wif bek wuay.. she made me less scared by saying lame things.. hahaha.. bek wuay rox lar..

urgh.. wadeva lar.. yinhui doesnt an lian wo.. wo an lian ta lar.. haha.. stop saying tt im qian bian.. and go buy vitagen.. they'll gif u bocky! okie tts not the common name.. tts onli MINE! bocky bocky! yinhui invented.. cos its qian bian.. o.o haha.. okie 4/10 rox.. im happie! and i did a nice quiz! wheee! =D

Your element is Light. Your heart is pure and
shining with love. You believe in the goodness
of those around you and give almost everyone a
smile. You are not the kind to hide your
happiness and tend to smile all day long, both
in and out. But when sadness hits you, you
become very devastated and may be upset for
quite some time. What you need in your life is
friends, friends who will love you
unconditionally, like you love them. But you
have a naive nature and don't always notice
when someone is trying to hurt you. Some would
say you are oblivious to mean people, which
makes you an easy target. However, your true
friends will probably be there for you and save
you. In school you are either the popular one
or the little weird one. It all depends if
"the higher people" find your caring
side irritating or not. Nevertheless, you have
a bubbly personality and are social. Big partys
may not be your thing since you want bonding
time with your friends, so slumber-partys fit
you more. You like the happy things in life and
like everyone else to be as happy as you are.
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2005-05-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

WAWA! changed song.. and finally got music.. haha.. =D so nice! so nice! i can sing a wawa! o.o haha.. anw todae was so rockish lar.. like normal lessons.. so wrote a zuo wen.. -.o haha.. ZHITING! and class tee is finally coming out.. =D wheee.. and im sad.. =( i got 80 for e math and 78 for a math.. tts so lousy.. =( i muz work hard for prelims!! and our mark sheet mysteriously went missing.. haha.. like we searched high and low.. bud cannot find!!!!!! haha.. we were realli thinking tt it flew out of the class.. bud logically it wun.. =D whee.. liting juz rock lar.. =D and YINHUI AN LIANS ME.. hahaha.. wadeva lar.. okie i thot tis will be long.. bud actualli it isnt.. =) tan kylie bring ur brush! rahh.. =D

saw HER todae.. like so scared.. hmm.. =D sentosa! ek is obviously hiding smth frm me.. hmm.. o.O guai guai de.. hhoho.. i love kia.. me>bbq! muack muack! ee im not ru hua! love love love u pple!! everyone hu's taking time out to go for sentosa thingy.. thx! =)

2005-05-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

whee.. im happie happie happie!!! i guess i was mood swinging becos of exams.. and now im not tt stressed le.. i got 3a1s.. and im veri much happie.. i love my math.. bud urgh.. i got 79 and 79.. like urgh! i wan a 80!!! =( nvm.. i shall work harder for my prelims! =D

i wanna learn frm xinling.. thankew to:
kylie.. liting.. tong.. majun.. xinling.. kiamian.. zhiting for being dere! =)

i noe i should let it go.. and maybe ive already let 20% go.. hahah.. the citigem song srill rock.. =)

im going sentosa! wheeee!!

2005-05-23T09:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.. = big neutral face.. life is throwing rubbish at me.. mj will noe best.. cos she's the onli one hu bothers bout me.. like wadeva lar.. she's the onli one hu rmbs tt my bdae is coming.. and tt she should make it special'for'me..spacebar'not'working'bud'i'hafta'get'all'tis'rubbish'in'me'OUT..
i'noe'im'not'popular'im'not'pretty'bud'tt'doesnt'mean'tt'my'bdae'is'not'impt..it'is'to'me..dun'throw'me
anymore'rubbish'..

retarded...'dun'bother'to'go'sentosa'if'u'feel'forced'i'can'play'wif'mj'and'mj'alone..cos'shes'the'onli'one'hu
cares'bud'im'not'alone'i'still'haf'mj..i'hate'u..u'make'me'feel'like'unwanted'trash..i'was'wrong'to'haf'believed
tt'u'care....get'off'me

2005-05-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

whee.. happie post! tis blogskin is useful! it makes me so happie!! =DD im juz veri happie beyond words.. if im supposed to cut off relationships wif her.. i will.. =) come to think of it.. i dun like her tt much ba.. heehee.. okie.. tts all.. juz wanna sae tis.. i dunno y things r happening tis way.. it seems unfair to me.. bud i believe tt everything happens for a reason.. maybe u and me are nvr meant to be..

you mean everything to me
you're all this world can never be

2005-05-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

whee.. im happie.. i juz wanna be happie.. u can choose to be happie or sad.. if everything goes wrong and ure still happie.. xing fu li ni bu yuan le.. angeline said tt im nice todae.. i hope to be lytt everydae.. i hope to be a problem solver instead of a trouble maker! =) i wanna see ur carefree smile again.. its okie.. its realli okie doing things tt u like.. cos im wif u.. i'll gif in to wadeva u do.. becos i care.. when u decided to leave me todae.. i understand.. wad's the pt of being sad if u dun care.. as long as 1 person cares.. im not alone! =) i still haf a lot of frenz.. so i wun be alone! i wif u.. always.. =) im the one giving in.. juz wanna see u smile.. its okie.. my heart can break for u.. if tt makes u happier.. my heart is already to broken to be broken again.. bud im mending them up wif lollipops frm sweet lil pple like weiteng and kylie.. nice conversations wif pple like kia kylie xinyi hu makes me contract diabetes.. and love frm so many pple.. im willing to do anything.. everything.. =)

' wont u take me by the hand take me sumwhere new

2005-05-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

okie i changed the lollipops! to rainbows! hohoho.. sounds more normal now.. =D

2005-05-21T11:10:00.000+08:00

whee.. okie i changed the music.. its peng you by wu yin liang ping now.. weiteng's suggestion.. =) nice music.. bud i still love hey juliet.. maybe nxt time when i change blogskin again i'll use tt music.. =D im happie! im realli realli veri happie! thx xy.. for u noe wad.. =) and thx kylie.. for u noe wad too.. and kia and mj.. dun think tt way.. i love u all.. veri much.. =D and i still love tan kylie a lot.. =) whee.. nth to write le.. weiteng is leng.. and lame.. and im happie! =D

2005-05-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

IM HAPPIE! i managed to change my blogskin!! bud er it looks plain.. bud its so nice! wif the nice nice lollipop pix.. actualli it was yinhui's frenster pix.. the last time one.. the purple lollipops in glasses.. bud i dun wanna steal pix frm yinhui! so im nice.. so im not tt toopid in making blogs rite! =) wheee.. okie mulan rox.. im at peace becos i noe.. its okie to be afraid.. =)

2005-05-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

thx yin hui kia tc liting for tagging... and xinling dun be sad.. =) u should be happie! we all care bout u.. okie i dunno bout others.. at least i do.. and its true tt we all care! wheee.. smile! =)

my blog is dying sooner or later.. dun come and visit le lar.. juz let it die.. im thinking of getting a new blogskin.. and erm.. a depressed one.. hoho.. nvm.. i changed a lot tis yr.. i hate it when i change against my own will.. i hate myself.. okie nvm.. thx weiteng for giving me the lollipops todae.. bud i doubt u'll come here so u wun see tis msg frm me.. bud still.. thx a lot.. u make me feel loved.. bud erm.. maybe it's not wad u wan me to feel.. okie i feel good luckED..

Y IS EVERYONE DOING WAD THEY WANNA DO.. okie.. guess its the way of life.. im an idiot for trying to compromise everytime.. doesnt matter.. hu sees my effort.. nobody.. take it tt im mood swinging and juz ignore me.. dun tell me stuff tt u dun mean.. yar i love u i love u.. even she can tell me she loves me.. how true is the love.. sry for being lytt.. i hate it when im lytt too.. juz take it tt im being unreasonable..

u juz make me feel like im a pile of rubbish..
and no one is willing to collect it away..

2005-05-18T18:18:00.000+08:00

EXAMS OVER LE!

whee! shall make my post more gentle to the eye.. cos kia sae my posts either too bright or too dull.. lalala.. im like so happie! i hate e math paper lar.. make me bie niao.. like i so wanna go toilet.. then i eee.. pai seh.. cos tt dae chem i walked out wif everyone staring at me.. o.O so i wanted to bie.. like frm 9 all the way to 10.. actualli i wanna go at ard 8.30.. then i realised tt i cannot bie anymore.. so i decided to ask the veri nice paul nah if i can go fang bian.. like wadeva lar.. everyone heard me again.. hoho.. completed the paper at 9.. bieED niao for 1/2 hr.. realised tt cant think while im niao ji-ing.. so after tt rushed thru the checking.. =) okie c lit was a disaster.. i finished guo gu ren zhuang like 1 sec be4 the tchr sae stop.. bleagh.. bud its OVER! kao shi wan le.. wo men ye wan le.. hohoho..

then went far east wif all the c lit pple except xiao le which has hmp paper.. awww.. =) we gif u our support!! then ate chicken rice.. and liting was complaining tt her chicken not dark enuf.. o.O then i gif her my sauce.. then in the end she got like soooo much sauce left over.. tc was torturing my bag by throwing it onto the floor and dropping rice grains onto it.. hahaha.. then she was staring at bek wuay while bek wuay was staring back at her.. so cute.. then xinling and tricia joined us..

so we wanted to watch a movie.. in the end no one wanna watch.. i so wanna watch coach carter lar.. bud urgh.. lido not showing.. irritating.. i WILL get to watch it one dae.. ohhh.. hohoho.. so went shopping wif the pple except for amelia and liting hu went for er ren shi jie and diana hu went home.. =) bought a pig for my mummy and toopid zhiting made me go ps wif her bud she realised tt gv close le.. =X hahaha..

okie.. tts all.. we rock!! i love 4/10.. =)

2005-05-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

im soooo happie! i love yinhui! thankew thankew thankew.. its not the choco u noe.. =) i love u.. thx for having me in ur mind.. =) awww.. angelic yinhui! gif u ai de yong bao! love u love u love u! wooo.. my mum juz bought nice nice mashmallows.. ni yao zen yang.. wo jiu shi bu xi huan put the R dere.. maRshmallow.. dun like.. bian wo arh.. lai bian wo arh.. =D hohoho.. i love MASHMALLOWS.. it still sound like marshmallow.. okie wadeva lar.. maRshmallow lar.. shh.. bu yao zai chao le.. maRsh lar maRsh lar.. okie sorry.. tts for my er.. not so retarded fren.. since when did u see me spell things correctly.. =X woops.. im so sorry.. okie fine wadeva lar.. marshmallow.. idiot.. okie so i gave maRshmallows to kylie todae.. idiot.. okie my blog is idiot proof.. cos its an idiot's blog.. i suck.. BU YAO CHAO.. sorry.. =D yi bian bei bug yi bian blog shi zhe yang de.. =D i gave up trying to find a new blogskin.. shall stick wif tis.. since its so flexible.. can be sad and happie at the same time.. okie i shall go slack and eat maRshmallows.. shut myself up.. i love li yu.. =)

2005-05-14T21:22:00.000+08:00

hey! tell me more about tt gal! the once screwed up bud now unscrewed gal.. im writing a not so depressing entry like i promised u.. ure a sour cheesecake.. =) u did unintentionally made me happier.. u rock by trying to convince me tt curry bbq sauce rox..

dunno wad to sae now.. i thot everything was okie until i read ur blog.. wad can i sae.. u juz dun believe tt i care.. =( bud well.. i'll be standing dere waiting for u.. =) i'll be sitting on the clouds too.. i do rmb the wu ding.. i hope u rmb tt too.. and yes dun ask if im writing bout u.. i am.. and i do care.. i dun hope tt u r the centre of the universe.. okie if u realli r.. i'll sit wif u in the centre of the universe.. althou it's quite hot dere.. =)

rubbish me.. wasted food todae.. hate myself.. okie bud im alrite.. im going back to the times when im happie and happie and happie! pple saw me as transparent todae.. im non existent again.. bud as long as one person cares im not unloved.. thx! u realli made my dae!

its not fair saying no one cares if 1 person cares.. and i noe.. pple do care.. =) i love everyone hu loved me.. and even if u sae it for the sake of saying it.. i still thank u.. cos at least u bothered to sae it to make me feel loved.. =)

i love church.. once again it made me felt peaceful.. i realli thot thru everything and understood.. i like wad pst said todae.. negative things WILL happen to u even if u dun do anything.. bud positive things wun come to u unless u do smth.. u dun sow apple seeds into ur garden and expect a harvest of oranges.. =) i sow happiness and i reap them! even if no one loves me.. i noe God does.. im an idiot for turning away frm the truth.. bud now im back..

change me
i nvr wan to be the same

2005-05-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

dun read tis post if u r a happie person.. i dun wanna get u depressed.. how good izzit to be happie.. like i once was.. =)

2005-05-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

boo.. wad's the use of blogging now when no one bothers to come and visit tis toopid blog.. yar try telling me no pple tag doesnt equate to no one comes.. see if i believe u.. juz like telling me that failing combined humans doesnt equate to im toopid.. =( nvm.. cant think properly now.. things juz dun turn out the way i wan it to.. wad's the pt.. when i do all tt and pple scolds me for wad im doing.. maybe i should avoid u.. so i can live life easier.. bud will u notice.. like hurhur.. will u.. will u take note when i dun tok to u on msn.. dun sms u.. dun call u up.. dun sae hi in sch.. wad will happen.. nth.. u're still happie.. im non-existent.. i should stop dreaming tt u care.. its a dream and im waking up frm it now.. i cant care much.. i hate myself.. i hate myself for staring at the fone while i was revising for geog waiting for u to msg me.. i hate myself for being happie at the sight of ur msg and getting upset becos u took so long to reply.. i hate myself for being so dependent on u tt i cant make my own decisions now.. i hate myself for letting u control my emotions.. i hate myself for being me.. =(

wad's the pt.. im definitely flunking my phy.. wad's the pt of studying when u noe u cant do it.. yar.. how true is it to try and even if u fail u did ur best.. i failed and i could nvr convince her tt i did my best.. so y get myself so tired out wif 4 hrs of slp daily.. she sees it as ying gai de.. so well.. wad's the pt.. wad's the pt of doing things.. wad's the pt of being the happie me.. when no one cares.. when no one loves the happie me.. and no one loves the sad me.. wad's the pt of being happie for the sake of being happie..

u.. u hate me dun u.. bud y.. i dun even noe u.. her? hah.. okie.. i'll do the same maybe if i were u.. hu can u blame.. hu can i blame.. fate? for bringing u to me and let me hear u sae tt straight in my face.. thx.. i appreciate ur frankness.. bud it does hurt..

tell me more bout them.. hu.. i hate myself.. for not telling u wad i wanna tell u.. yes i agree.. its too late now.. wad can i sae.. i chose to keep my mouth shut then.. so i betta keep quiet now.. thx for msging me.. and making me keep all ur msges in my inbox.. now i cant receive any more msges.. hu's fault izzit.. mine.. yar i ought to kick myself in the back for making u cry.. im sorry.. bud was i wrong.. did u even cry.. was it even me hugging u then.. did u see me hugging u.. or was it another person u were thinking of.. dun bother to ans me.. i dun wanna noe the truth.. cos i noe the truth wun be smth i wanna noe..

flunking my exams.. i'll be getting them back soon.. bud wad diff does it make.. it'll make u hate me more.. so well.. y not.. at the veri least now i noe the reason for u hating me.. at least i noe.. dun hate me without giving me a reason.. it doesnt make me hate u.. it makes me hate myself.. stop hating urself.. i dun hate u..

thx for all tt.. thx for always turning away.. and thx for saying all those things.. do i look as if i dun care.. okie if i did.. i care a lot.. a lot.. cos i care for her.. i wonder if u did tt on purpose.. u knew it'll hurt me dun u.. u juz wanted happiness frm my sadness.. okie u succeeded.. and thx for walking away wif her...

2005-05-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

pretty pple.. im beginning to look at things in a weirder way.. kylie said smth tt set me thinking.. hoho.. i like autistic pple.. DA LAN CHONG I LIKE U.. okie no underlying meaning.. juz trying to sae tt u=autistic.. i noe i noe.. u wanna sae tt ure not autistic rite.. hoho.. juz geking u.. o.O yay.. i still like peace a lot.. peaceful music? peaceful pple? peaceful stories.. u noe tt kinda things tt r so peaceful.. no climax.. no nth.. juz things/pple hu make u feel like they r continuously replenishing themselves everydae wif peacefulness.. okie nvm if u dun understand.. life rox.. i juz realised the importance of appreciating frenz ard us.. 4/10 rox.. i'll bring my cam everydae for the 2nd half of the yr.. i cant afford to waste any time wif my classmates.. they occupy a large area of space in my heart.. im at peace now.. i see thru a lot of things.. im learning frm yinhi a lot.. =) i cant bear to delete msges in my inbox now.. cos i appreciate the thot tt sum pple at sum part of time thot of me.. i nvr delete forwarded msges u noe.. i still haf eK's happie birthdae last yr.. cos im thankful for every bit of care and love pple gimme.. im starting to love tis yuxing.. rather than the yuxing hu selectively loves pple.. i love everyone now.. dun doubt me when i sae i love u.. cos i realli do.. =)

todae was csm.. i hate myself once again.. i got pissed wif my classmates.. or rather pissed wif myself.. bud yar.. we still love each other yar.. yinhui juz rox lar.. she wanted to roll down the grass thingy todae.. hohoh.. i wonder when did we get close huh yinhui.. =) i like u too! yinhui=autistic.. yinhui: okie wadeva lar.. haha.. then went kap wif vivien yinhui youxin xinling and jac! vivien was soooo attracted by tis shuai guy in kap.. she kept asking us to look at him.. haha.. and i was mean.. i was like.. haiya taken le lar.. cos got tis gal sitting opp him.. bud i still took his backview for vivien.. =) i love my class.. i realli do.. everything.. and i love my dance grp.. i cant listen to hey juliet without thinking of kylie yingxu and shum.. we rock alrite.. =) i wanna be ur romeo.. =)

2005-05-06T16:35:00.000+08:00

whee.. im happie.. VERI HAPPIE.. i muz muz muz thank TAN KYLIE! i realli realli dunno wad will happen if u werent dere.. =) i love u i love u i love u! thx for the longggg tok in the hall.. i realli appreciate all the time u spent wif me cheering me up! the kylie pai de sooper glue rox.. sticks my broken heart back into one whole piece! =) and thx 4/10 pple for cheering me up.. im happie now.. and everyone rox.. =) oh and thx weiteng for toking to me too.. u rock for many reasons!! =) thx for going to st margs wif me to take my cam back when it was raining sooo heavily yesterdae.. and getting ur stuff all wet and soaked wif rainwater.. thx for teaching me how to make the star in a star thingy.. althou ive forgotten how to do.. bud u still rock! DA LAN CHONG! =) im so happie todae.. taking all sorts of random stuff.. there're so many nice pple in sch.. NICE PPLE! i got 83 for my a math ca.. and 74 for e math.. how idiotic can i be.. i juz cant do e math.. im gonna get a1s for my a math and e math and chem and chinese and eng and geog for my mid yrs.. IM GONNA WORK HARD! ermm.. ss jiu suan le mah.. =X i got a pooh bear sticker frm rashida todae.. i love her.. i wanna do well to make her proud! and mj rox too.. for going everywhere wif me.. doing toopid stuff wif me and going home wif me.. and letting me take her nice sunflower.. she noes ur love for her alrite.. =) maybe she doesnt show tts all.. i love mj too.. =) fridaes rox.. i dun wanna leave ny.. seriously.. i'll miss everyone..

2005-05-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

angry/pissed/disappointed/retarded.. i hate myself.. i juz hate myself.. how i wish i m dead now.. like nobody will notice after all.. maybe onli my classmates.. y is she so mean to me.. m i not her daughter.. how can she sae tt kinda things to me.. i cant believe it.. how many times haf i cried over tis.. a lot of times.. hu can help me.. im all alone now.. she sae cannot get back cam dun come home.. okie.. how i wish im NOT ur daughter.. I HATE U.. I HATE U.. I NOE U HATE ME TOO.. FINE.. THEN JUZ HATE ME.. I HATE U TOO.. I HATE U.. Y DID U GIF BIRTH TO ME THEN.. U GAVE BIRTH TO ME AND U SHOULD TAKE CARE OF ME.. okie.. im an idiot.. toopid idiot.. now u noe where i learn all the vulgarities.. thx for all the nice descriptions u gave me.. i noe im a freak.. and u wish tt u dint gif birth to me.. thankew.. i love u.. i realli love u.. i realli realli love u.. i wanted to spend the whole of mothers dae wif u.. bud my love for u was NEVER paid off.. u dun care.. money>me.. wad should i do.. i noe u hate me.. cos of him.. u hated me to the core.. i ought to die.. yes.. i ought to die.. thx for telling me tt.. its not new to me.. I OUGHT TO DIE..

i thot after 16 yrs i should be clear bout tis fact.. i thot i was used to all ur insults.. everything tt u sae.. every slap tt u gave me.. i deserve it.. for being ur daughter.. i deserve everything.. if the punishment for murder is not death.. i guess i would haf been dead for yrs now.. how i wish all tis is a dream.. haha.. toking bout death.. im a coward.. i dare not tell anyone in my class bout wad happened maybe except kylie.. im a coward.. i dun wan anyone to ke lian me.. im not ke lian.. I DUN WAN.. go away.. dun tell me u love me if u dun.. cos it'll onli hurt me even more.. i hate u wangyuxing..

2005-04-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

whee.. todae was walkathon! fun! =) heehee.. so in the morning i went sch.. i think gundam seed is jinxed.. i missed the finale TWICE.. like hurhur.. so i still dunno wad happened.. nvm i managed to reach sch and met liting! and we were the onli 2 pathetic 4 tenners ard.. saw youxin and xinling in 4/11 class.. and we decided to go for the 4/10 hunt.. saw shum at tt area behind the podium.. saw shiying and xinyi! nice pple make me smile! =) and met kylie and yingxu and so we went to practise our dance.. then we went to join our class and yinhui looked real cute! she was in a good mood todae.. cant tell.. im observant too okie! and she realli looked like she got a halo.. =) nice yinhui!

after the morning assembly we were listening to the announcements when ms chua come walking and screamed.. ARH! YUXING! TUCK IN UR T SHIRT!~ then i urgh.. pe tee tucked into berms.. urgh.. then i fold in.. ;) bud.. she walked back and eyed me suspiciously.. and lifted up my shirt.. "u dun tuck in later i personally help u tuck in arh" ._. okie fine.. haha ms chua rox lar.. then i tucked in.. and she walk pass and haha.. i tucked in! whee.. yay.. haha.. then we had the toopid tchr contest.. i gave up trying to see the pix cos i was too far frm it.. so i was toking to yinhui and zhiting.. yinhui was asking me if i wan milo.. yinhui is sweet.. as sweet as yuxing.. hurhur.. then she was like i wanna treat u and zhiting.. awww.. =) YINHUI! she's a cute mascot! then we set off.. i PARTNERED youxin.. hahaha..

was laming wif youxin and liting on the way to SMU.. ny rox.. =) then we were singing ci niao.. pls dun listen to youxin's version.. its "wo ci si na zhi niao lalalala.. " ._._. double lamED face.. hahaha.. and liting sux lar.. she was walking pass ron tok.. when she decided to pt to him and scream AH TOK! TOK TOK!~ TOK TOK! O.o and ron tok was like.. O.O hahaha.. and i pulled liting away be4 smth disastrous happened to her.. hahaha.. cute liting.. >.< then was singing toopid songs and toked to kylie.. wah mean gal! dun torture urself! slp early and eat more! zhen shi de.. =) then we reached SMU! toopid.. it was so hot lar.. and youxin managed to get some fishballs for me.. the last 3.. nice youxin! =)

then we had body combat.. o.o we were half cooked.. the other half is the part away frm the sun.. hurhur.. i had my lower part of my body hot and upper body warm.. cos i was wearing black berms wif sch pe tee.. =( anw decided to go out wif mj tong and shizhen.. and saw shiying on my way out.. cute gal.. wanted to noe if lib is open.. come to think of it.. lib IS a nice place to go to.. for fun and not for cca.. hurhur.. lameD weiteng like totally by asking her wad she wanna get for my bdae.. ._. had a mild heat stroke.. urgh.. =( hugged youxin and liting.. and almost fainted on them.. i wanna go youxin's hse too.. bud yay.. my dance grp rox more alrite.. =)

waved byebye to kia on the bus.. and went to westmall.. ate bK.. woohoo.. then i went home.. went church after tt.. oh i missed church so much.. it is so peaceful and calm and tranquil at nite.. sae tt my eng rox.. after eng oral.. ._. and played qing tian to angeline.. i noe she was sad.. nth i sae can make her feel happier.. juz hafta tell her i care and show her tt im still dere for her.. isnt tt wad frenz r for.. =) like i was telling tong.. many a times we dun need frenz to tell us wad to do.. cos 90% of the time we noe wad to do.. we juz need reassurance tt we're doing the rite thing and they r by our side.. =)

i finally cultivated the veri good habit of paragraphing.. less than 11 dae to weiteng's bdae.. meaning i got less than 1 week to revise for mid yrs.. urgh... SOMEONE GIF ME SOME ENCOURAGEMENTS.. =( i love 4/10 nonetheless.. =) life rox after all..

2005-04-27T18:50:00.000+08:00

WE BROKE THE GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS FOR THE LONGEST POPIAH! =)

hahah... im veri much excited for the popiah making thingy.. BUD.. first thing in the morning.. NAPFA.. =( so ran 2.4.. i suck alrite.. 15.55 got improvement frm last yr lar.. bud i expected MORE.. i could haf at least gotten a B.. juz tt i ran too fast for the 1st round and got stitch like after the 3rd round.. then i stopped.. urgh.. and i feel like slapping myself.. i suck okie.. =( and then we went for the popiah thingy.. and thx a lot to yinhui.. i was standing opp her.. and she was like.. zhe me mo ren zhan zai wo qian mian arh.. then im like.. mo ren=me.. haha.. then errr.. =( hah bud tts so yinhui lar.. =D okie she's happie.. cos she stood beside ZHEN ZHI.. yay.. =D zhen zhen.. then we started making the popiah.. and the popiah cheer.. then me and zhiting were laming each other.. it was bao bing bao bing you bao you bing xiang cui wo bi zhen shi ji ping.. hahah.. farni.. then we changed it to.. popiah popiah you po you piah.. erm like.. haha.. first time ever yinhui nvr roll her eyes.. cos obviously rite.. it was zhiting.. errr.. haha

anw the popiah was a big success! it was 196.14m!! =) we broke the previous record... heehee.. =) and we ate LOADS of popiah.. =D POPIAH! and we had recess wif all the popiahs.. heehee.. and then we went for math lessons.. bud ms tan was so nice to gif us a treat.. and we ate loads of stuff.. and we played xing ren gan da kao yan.. my fav partner! YINHUI! haha.. we kept playing.. yin hui and zhiting r the 2 whom i love to play wif.. zhiting is so.. haha.. she juz refuse to believe tt i dare to kiss her.. erm maybe i realli dun.. haha.. =X and it was fun! rox.. and liting was lame lar.. like kylie told us to ask ms tan bout the treat.. and liting asked.. MS TAN Y R U IN SUCHA GOOD MOOD TODAE.. then im like.. doink.. then ms tan was like.. blink blink.. im in a good mood everydae.. and we did an experiment.. kylie asked her junior the same question.. then her jnr was like.. me? then youxin was like wo? then everyone ans either me? or im in a bad mood.. haha.. okie yuxing is smarter... i was like.. ms tan.. y the treat? then she was like i tell u later..

and i wanna thank ms tang bek wuay for poking the wadeva u call in into my nostrils.. thx a lot.. =S haha.. everyone started feeding me.. and i feel like a sheep.. erm.. haha.. i love 4/10! so later during recess i was toking to yinhui and xiao le.. hmm.. toked bout learning attitude.. haha.. yar nice toking to yinhui.. i agree wif her.. was telling her tt some pple in our class gimme the feeling tt i dunno them.. like i dun even noe them.. hmm.. bud last yr i oso nvr tok to yinhui.. bud i feel like yinhui is one of my closer frenz.. yar.. like i can cry lauf make a fool out of myself in front of her.. some pple i cant lar.. yar so yinhui rox! =) hahaha.. then after sch was the 5 items.. erm.. smart huh.. we got NAPFA in one whole dae.. bleagh.. okie so i hate myself SO MUCH okie..

i almost got gold.. if onli i could get a C for my standing board jump.. bud bleagh i cant do tt item.. so i got bronze.. can u believe it.. GOLD TO BRONZE.. cos i got E for my standing board jump.. can i kill myself.. irritating yuxing.. okie nvm.. =( i shall go for intense standing board jump trng wif tong.. =) happie! okie i dun like neo weiteng.. she's not nice.. somehow she was toking to kylie.. and erm.. kylie tapped me.. and i was like.. O.O then after 10sec.. i was like.. ARHHHH.. okie.. haha.. slow.. and she was like i dint noe its u.. ure short.. erm.. like ure tall.. bleagh.. haha.. and kylie and shizhen was helping me see if she's taller.. and shizhen was like same ht.. then KYLIE said weiteng is taller.. she seriously shouldnt haf said tt.. i can imagine wad weiteng will sae.. yi dian dian ye bi ni gao.. ._. im taller then tan.. okie case closed.. and i was telling tricia bout yinhui.. isnt it so true tt yinhui does tis to me.. walks pass.. zen me hui you ren zhang na me ai arh.. =( haha.. okie todae rox.. =)

2005-04-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. kinda weird.. i guess im realli bottled up recently.. im happie bud bottled up.. i was in the class todae and saw HER walking out of the class.. her back was so.. tall.. and.. lonely.. wad to sae.. i dunno wad to sae.. i noe she has a lot of secrets in her.. a lot.. and all tis are making her mysterious and hard to get close to.. cold.. it kinda reminded me of HER a yr ago.. she was lonely too.. and she depended on me.. was i wrong.. to let her go.. let go of her hands.. becos i was tired.. and i gave up.. i gave up on HER.. it muz haf been so much hurt and agony in HER when i hung up on HER.. onli once.. tts all it takes for HER to hate me.. she doesnt sae anything.. i noe she's angry.. she's upset.. and she's giving up.. can i ask u not too... i cant.. i haf no rite too.. i let go off ur hands.. u dint.. u were holding on.. =( i can still rmb the look in ur eyes.. the times when i cried on my shoulders.. the times when u skipped cca to come my hse.. and the time when i told u to bug off becos i was too stressed.. should i sae sorry.. i dun even haf to rite to sae tt im ur fren.. i was evil..

i was toking to tong.. and i found myself back.. the me 1 yr ago.. i shouldnt be so buried in HER memories.. i still get to see her oftenly anw.. i still rmb when u sat down wif me tt dae.. and told me.. its been so long since i toked to u.. everything changed.. i was a listener.. not THE listener.. i noe u wanted her instead.. im sorry i cant be wad u wan me to be.. i should haf gone to tt sch then.. u were wrong.. i cared for u more than her actualli.. bud will u ever noe how i feel.. i dun hope so.. i will be too embarrassed to even tok to u.. i can onli convince myself.. tt its 1 yr now.. and.. 1 yr.. i wish i could turn back time.. =(

i love it when u smile
i hate it when u cry
when u lean on my shoulders
telling me the rite ways to fly

when u call me everydae to tell me
how much u wanted to die
i got angry when i see
u long for another shoulder when u cry on mine

idiot.. im an idiot.. realising ur importance after so long.. should i thank HER for tt.. yar.. can i ever be HER fren.. if i could.. shift my love for u to her.. if onli i could..

2005-04-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

wheee.. todae was fun.. i went sci centre.. sucks lar.. not the sci centre bud ME! i suck.. i actualli lost my way.. =( i took 334 then i realised tt i should take 335 instead so i went to the 335 busstop.. and i waited for 15mins for the bus.. i alighted at the weiteng busstop dere and like i lost my way again.. hurhur.. i was figuring out a way to go to the mac.. i saw the M sign and i walked according to the arrow.. and wah deadend.. like how toopid can i get.. so i made a u turn and the uncle hu was walking behind me looked at me like im some toopid gal.. fine juz take it tt i live in pasir ris okie.. bud i dun.. i live in jurong.. wah.. and so i managed to find mac in the end and eneida was lauffing at me like crazy.. fine.. and liwei was like i thot u live in jurong.. i seriously hope tt weiteng doesnt see tis.. no yinhui no liting no kia no anyone.. so y m i still blogging bout tis.. fine.. wadeva LAR.. lauf lar.. =( im sad.. haha..

my mood ring is still BLACK..

i lauffed at zhiguo for the whole of todae.. how lame can he get.. pls dun sae tt he's as old as me.. took random stuff todae.. tts me.. i like to take random stuff.. =D maybe i should consider working as a photographer in the not so near de near future.. =) walked to jurong east mrt station to take train to boon lay.. i dint get lost.. =) neida was sending me off.. nice neida!

my mood ring is STILL BLACK..

was telling neida lame jokes after svc.. i suck.. i cant tell jokes in chinese.. i cant tell them in english too.. juz teach me sign language alrite.. coma is hun mi.. yesh.. sae tt im smart.. and i noe tt doctor is YI sheng alrite.. =D

while im typing tis my mood ring is lying on the computer and its still black.. =(

i took tis after dropping by chen zhi's blog.. =)

Mo... Molybdenum
You scored 35 Mass, 36 Electronegativity, 86 Metal, and 0 Radioactivity!

I like to think of you as the miracle worker in The Princess Bride... you can do anything and you do it for the betterment of society. Just because you can raise the dead and make flying wagons and stuff doesn't mean that you show off about it though. You are capable of forming bizarre webs of relationships in which individuals are accomplices, lovers, coworkers, and so on all at once. I once saw you hanging out at the center of a cycloheptatriene... it was completely freakish and bizarre, and I'm not sure I've known what to think of you since. But hey, to each their own. Oh, and stay away from the carbon monoxide... you suck that stuff up.

2005-04-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

haha.. blogging! firstly i wanna thank the lim kia kia for portraying me as sucha nice person in her blog.. i agree to the fact tt yuxing is nice and chio and pretty and ke ai.. ahaha.. *everyone decides to not visit my blog anymore* haha.. yep yep.. todae was a happie dae.. rox lar.. like yinhui celine kylie and cheeseball rocked.. we got into finals! and yinhui was sooper fast okie.. bu kui shi yinhui mah.. haha.. then i realised tt the sec 3 trackers veri zai.. the 4 sprinters frm 3/14.. yinhui was like ARHHH sprinters! haha.. okie it was real fun.. except the fact tt i kept climbing up and down the toopid stand (is tt wad u call it) yar lar anything lar.. then place where the audience sat.. and was running up and down to look for SOME pple.. haha.. whom i shant reveal.. =D and weiteng was acting autistic todae.. she was sitting dere ACT ke lian... then me and kia went to tok to her.. then i pulled her shoe lace.. aha.. and bei ma.. like obviously lar.. haha.. she ran sooper fast todae.. i was O.O when i saw her run.. zi bei zi bei..

haha.. after tt went kia's hse wif kia and mj and cynthia.. woops.. zhi you wo shi 4/10 de.. bud hu cares.. hu saes tt diff classes cannot be good frenz.. kia my best bud okie.. =D she rox.. i rock too.. =) haha.. went j8 after tt.. then realised tt cynthia is so flexible.. she's shuai plus pretty.. woops.. haha.. yar then went window shopping.. =) and urgh die.. EVERYONE noes tt i like AHEM.. wrong! i dun like AHEM.. i onli think tt she's pretty.. haha.. wadeva.. y do i bother to put ahem here.. since EVERYONE noes it.. =( haha.. im realli veri fickle! how! help me.. =( haiya.. nvm lar.. haha.. i realised tt i dun haf a fav singer now.. the most recent one is still sylvester.. and i dun like him le.. so erm.. lets stick to jay chou.. oh fir.. bud it sounds weird to go i wanna marry jian ning lao shi.. sounds sick to be precise.. =X

2005-04-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

i was feeling weird todae.. rather disturbed.. thot of things and i start to question bout a lot of things ard me.. hmm.. yar.. nvm.. read fruits basket 16 todae.. tis comic nvr fails to bring some revelations to me.. i like the part bout existence..

no one is NEEDED to exist in tis world.. bud we r all NEEDED cos someone out in tis world needs us.. =) knocked some sense into me.. and i began to question bout a lot of things i did in the past..

izzit realli wad i wanted.. happiness is so short tt sometimes it can be quite sad to see the happie life destroyed.. i still hafta learn i guess.. its hard for me to let go of things and yar life is such tt we hafta let things go sometimes.. i still needa learn.. i feel philosophical.. hahaha.. well.. =)

kia told me smth which made me question bout pple too.. they dun eat tog anymore rite after their com.. izzit rite? for me i guess so.. everyone has their rite to be wif their frenz.. cant always be restricted to a grp of frenz..

bud yar.. how would it feel for them.. yi han? i guess so.. tts the onli phrase i can think of..

would i live to regret one dae too.. tt i dint treasure pple in my life..

i dun hope so...

2005-04-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

heeh.. todae was a happie dae.. =) was planning to go for bball finals wif tong.. ended up the whole class hafta go.. heeh.. so went wif my not so beloved yinhui.. =X woops.. haha.. shh.. i cant tell u tt she an lians me.. like *rolls eyes* rite yinhui.. okie she rox lar.. yar so wanted to sit wif hei hei de.. bud like cos mo mo ren wanna sit wif her veri cute zhiting so yar we cut in between zt and kylie.. o.O so it was yingxu kylie me yinhui zhiting tricia.. yar.. then finally todae we got as many pple as the opponent.. anglican high.. hmm.. yar.. ny showed veri good sch spirit.. by cheering the bballers on.. weiteng rox too.. she can jump veri high.. okie.. she wasnt lying to me.. haha.. yar and everyone rox.. =) we lost bud yar ny still won.. as in we got good sportsmanship.. we dint jeer like some pple did.. bud well.. i think no 8 rox.. =D yar.. hope u get to see tis in time.. jia you for math! =)

was toking to kylie bout bball.. and yar.. i juz realised smth.. toa payoh sports complex means smth to me.. i watched my first ever bball match dere.. sajc vs hcjc.. and yar.. i watched my last bball match here too.. nygh vs ahs.. bud yar.. we did well.. =) went home wif celine kylie yinhui vivien youxin xinling and tricia.. went to mac and yinhui saw ahem.. and she veri happie.. oh yar.. and did i mention tt yinhui an lians zt.. o.O haha.. out of topic.. bud yar.. and we bought apple pies.. and youxin got tis sooper lame joke.. we were like apple pie hai zai zha.. then she... muz be the apples hai zai zhong.. then im like ._. haha.. lameD so yar took mrt home.. i muz sae tt i was veri much touched.. haiya.. u noe ur fren yuxing lar.. i was angry and sad after the match.. toopid anglican pple.. bud yar.. youxin rox.. she noes tt im not exactly happie and pei wo hui jia.. like she can take the sch bus back to sch and take bus home.. she'll reach home faster.. bud yar she decided to pei wo to take mrt to clementi and take bus home.. yar.. she rox.. =) 4/10 rox.. nanyang rox.. now im beginning to think bout wad mrs wong said.. i'll definitely miss these daes when i graduate.. i'll nvr forget all the pple.. =)

2005-04-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

whee.. todae was fun.. haha.. so right in the morning i was watching gundam seed.. dun ask me y m i so bo liao bud hey.. the show is nice okie.. im so proud of myself.. like last week i onli noe 1 name.. kira.. now at least i noe all the 4 leads and like i noe hu likes hu okie.. pls sae tt im smart.. see i noe lacus the chio chio gal and athrun the shuai shuai guy and cagalli.. erm.. haha.. tis getting boring.. hah.. okie so lacus is athrun's ex fiancee and now she likes kira and kira likes her.. o.O then cagalli likes kira (i think lar haiya) bud realised tt they're siblings.. O.o heeh.. so smart pple will noe (like me) tt kira will be wif lacus and athrun will be wif cagalli.. =D wan quan out of topic.. ._.

hah.. okie.. m i going to write bout everything tt happened to me.. haha.. okie so cos tml going for cip.. so we practised our dance during 2nd recess.. =) okie yinhui cannot coordinate.. o.o haha.. so went home wif our nice nice yinhui.. she's nice lar.. pei wo qu lib.. haha.. then she was eating.. then i felt sha qi.. then yinhui got a weird look on her face oso.. then i 1 2 3 turn.. then saw weiteng.. =S haha.. then she wave wave.. then i O.o o.O haha.. then thot she going home wif her fren.. then she walked to me and was like yao hui jia ma.. then i hu me? haha.. then she was like.. ta shi na ge xiang cai chun jia de ma.. then i oh no die.. then yinhui cong man le sha qi de yan jing stare at me.. then i *shiver shiver* haha.. haiya im qian bian lar..

so we were walking and yinhui said tt im short.. so i said toopid tracker.. then weiteng lauffed.. then i toopid bballer.. then they chou library.. ._. w0w.. haha library bei ma bu shi wo.. XD hah im sooper qian bian leh i think.. okie then weiteng was like mei li mao.. then i eh wei she me xue wo.. then yinhui was like na shi wu zhong xian ba.. ni gan ma yao geng wu zhong xian yi yang arh.. then i urgh.. then i was like.. bud i like ta shuo de yi ju hua.. WO BU SHI TOU DA.. WO ZHI SHI TOU FA DUO.. then both the toopid bballer and tracker lauffed.. ._. wo jin tian cai dao ning mong de.. leng arh.. snowing.. =S

then was laming weiteng on the bus.. she was lauffing terribly at my toopid roll on the bus joke.. like hurhur(learning frm yinhui) hahaha.. okie wadeva.. let me predict.. tml she'll be drinking her soya milk again.. cos she sae alternate.. ._. okie lar.. like hah.. lame dae.. oh yar qian nian zhi lian rox.. faye got nice voice.. =)

2005-04-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

harlow! wheee... so long nvr blog le.. haiya sianED.. aniwaez ytd got 3 nice nice thai students who came to my class.. whee i love mai! she's so pretty! pretty gal.. i kept calling her pretty gal the whole dae.. and toey! she rox too.. she's pretty too.. im like tanner than her.. pls sae w0w.. haha.. im not too tanned lar.. im juz tanner than most pple.. KILL ME! haha.. then fon is cute too.. so we went for math lesson.. then jasmine tan was sick.. poor thing.. she shou heng duo lar.. muz be too sick then lytt.. so we got free period.. so karen was asking me if me and liting wanna go wif them to tour round the sch.. haha.. then me and SI and liting tagged along.. so off we go wif shum karen and toey and mai and shizhen and amy.. whee.. so we went popular.. and mai told me tt pretty is swaii in thai.. and toey argued tt swaii is beautiful.. pretty is nara.. or rather nala.. haiya anything lar.. depends on ur pronounciation.. i prefer nala.. heeh.. yuxing nala.. =) bei da.. then they teach me i love u.. chan(g) rat ta.. chan rite ta oso can.. haiya juz the pronounciation lar.. chang mai rat ta is i dun love u.. and liting kept saying tt to me.. o.O irritating pok..

haha.. then went library and saw mrs chia's son! soooo kawaii... nala.. rox k.. then went swing.. then play.. haha.. SI dunno how to swing!! toopid SI.. erm.. im saying tt im toopid too.. bleagh.. then after tt mai gave me nice nice keychain.. and she agreed to be my wife.. muacks to mai.. love her.. then i was irritating liting.. i was like.. mai nala.. mai swaii.. mai lor.. then she MAI CAO LAR.. then i.. O.O hahaha.. then youxin was like HAHAHA.. u noe her.. she got no xing xiang.. =S yar then we went to the bball match.. wif tong jayce chenyang wangye and joanne.. and joanne is lame okie.. like throughout the whole journey i was like.. leng leng leng.. haha.. then went for the match.. i think weiteng rocked.. she rox.. cynthia oso veri rockish.. w0w.. im starting to invent words.. how bout rocky.. =X then whee we went home..

wheee.. then todae! i was reading san guo yan yi.. okie lar.. it rocked.. me and yin hui and liting think tt it rocked.. liting and me is cos of our nice c lit tchr.. she made it sooo interesting k.. then yin hui is becos she thinks tt her book is cute.. cos got hanyu pinyin underneath the chi characters.. oh did i miss out the hilarious part.. cai thinks tt we r prcs.. muz be we too guai le.. she was like.. ni men o level zhi hou yao zhuo she me.. then i errr.. jin jc? then she ohh.. na ni men de jiang xue jing ne? then i blink blink.. wad scholarship.. i dun even haf EESIS lar.. then i err.. wo mei you jiang xue jing.. then she.. HAR.. wo yi zhi yi wei ni shi prcs ne.. then i err.. bu shi.. wo 5 sui jiu lai xing jia po le.. then she.. SHI MA.. then stare stare.. then she look at me.. and asked.. na liting ne? then i HAR.. liting.. erm.. ye bu shi.. na me yin hui ne.. ermm.. ye bu shi.. then she.. shi ma.. then i wah faint.. =S

haha.. then todae was fun lar.. the eng totally rocked.. KYLIE ROX.. her mulan powerpoint.. i can onli rmb.. mrs lee.. pls hear our plead.. blah blah blah blah blah.. then pls gif a1 to us all.. 4/10 rox.. =) ROX.. xing's toopid version : 4 1 0! u rock my world.. we r so cool so fun so helpful.. we will nvr leave out any fun.. this is four ten for us all! =) i rock too.. haha.. okie then toopid tyx.. she noe tt i got muscle ache lar.. then still run down to canteen to buy food.. then i limp limp.. then chase after her.. then saw weiteng.. then she WANGYUXING! then i har.. then she WAD DID U TELL MY COACH.. then i har x 2.. then she jiang le yi da dui wo ting bu dong de stuff... then conclusion.. should be another person sae de.. then i was like.. wah i nvr tok to ur coach lar.. like HOW TO.. she's so tall.. then i lytt.. tok to her my neck veri pain.. then she sae.. wo ye shi ma.. see.. she admits tt she's short.. taller than a shortie isnt smth good.. im tall.. juz tt everyone else is taller.. XP

I CANT MISS OUT ON TIS PART.. yin hui will lauf to death.. cos tis part is specially dedicated to her.. KARIN CHAI YIN HUI! she rox my world okie.. eh.. bi zhi bian chang le.. oops.. okie so i wrote "hand in a math assignment 17A on mondae" then okie lar.. i admit tt im qian bian.. i shou yang.. then wrote beside my assignment thingy.. "passerby A:wah nice handwriting" passerby B:of course lar.. yuxing write de." then yin hui was like.. i dunno y some pple can be so wu liao.. waste marker ink.. then im like.. KARIN CHAI YIN HUI! then she gimme the trademark karin face.. act cute.. then she haha.. i think u needa go for body checkup.. later got HBP.. then i ermm.. then u pay for my fees.. then she was like.. then i betta buy some high in cholesterol food then i bao xue guan si then dun needa pay for my medical fees.. then i.. wah.. then kylie was like.. haha jia you karin.. im like.. O.o okie end of story..

yep.. then went to buy la bi's prezzie wif mj and ting ting and shizhen.. yar.. saw tis nice wallet.. I WAN.. nvm.. mine's coming soon.. heeh.. im glad tt first week of june got extra lessons.. heeh heeh.. =D liting!!~~~ hahaha... youxin~~!!! hai tun wan lian ren rox.. okie tts all ba.. im boredED.. MULAN ROX!! please bring honour to us all.. =)

2005-04-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

hah.. mei yan sae i veri long tiem nvr blog le.. so i shall bloggg.. oh lala.. tis few daes having pms.. like haiya.. bud im happie.. cos like my anger/sadness wun last more than 2hrs.. i muz thank a few pple here.. kia! ah kia is nice.. cos i was pissed tt dae and she mangaed to make me lameD within 1 hr.. haha.. i feel loved.. =) and of course the sooper sweet kylie! hu asked me n times "how r u" within a dae.. =) i love u k.. and yar haha my lovely darling huiting and chuan chuan.. i was pissed todae too.. and u all make me feel relaxed.. thx darlinggsss.. =DD lovely pple! yar.. watching sound of music todae.. rox.. i love julie andrews.. she can realli sing.. =) she rox in princess diaries too.. yar.. nth to write bout le.. =D

2005-03-25T12:16:00.000+08:00

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2005-03-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

yayayayayayyy!! guess wad dae is todae? its FLAG DAE! woooOooHOoooO! so we went somerset to collect our tins.. okiez.. i was smsing zhiting happily cos i thot i was early.. like erm.. w0w.. toopid me alighted at the wrong station.. like O.O when i saw the big big CITY HALL.. i was like.. wahhh.. then i went out.. then i erm.. wrong.. then ran up the stairs.. to see the train li wo er qu.. wah.. then i.. ok nvm i relax first.. train coming soon.. then i erm.. saw.. nxt train.. 7mins.. i was like WAD!! U TELLING ME 7MINS!!! then im like.. then i'll be sooper late.. then i smsed zhiting.. and mei li de zhiting refused to reply me.. until i reached somerset like 1000000 yrs later.. then i saw 2 words.. behind u.. like how lame can zhiting get.. she was right in FRONT of me when i received the msg.. like w0w.. m i supposed to sae WAH HAO KE BA!! ._. <-- tts right!! tts the perfect face for tis situation! =D lalala.. then i went wif tc youxin bek wuay tong and kylie.. then lalala.. youxin is sucha.. COWARD!! she like stand dere.. then pple walk pass her.. then she stone.. =S haha.. then im like mine kong kong de.. shake shake no sound.. then veri sad.. then after tt got hao xing ren donate to me.. then got 1 buck.. then im like.. you xin!! i got 1 buck.. then she.. i got qi mao.. o.O haha.. then i was like lalalala.. then bullied tc and you xin.. yay.. no zhiting! no one to bully me!! =D heeh heeh.. then i got a veri nice voice todae tt i cant even sing.. haiz.. yay.. then we decided tt the grp too big so split.. then i went wif tong and kylie.. =) we went city hall and got chased out of the raffles city.. =X then we went to the other entrance.. the saint andrews cathedral one.. =D my fav church.. actualli no.. cos my fav church is my church.. oh wellz.. my fav traditional church.. =) yepz.. then went back to gif back the tin.. then mei li de person sae mine's light.. like wad.. mine's heavy k.. =( hmph.. nvm.. yay.. then went to eat wif tc youxin and bek wuay after they joined us.. lalalala.. i think i got too tired standing.. cos.. MY FEVER CAME BACK.. urgh.. how suay can i get.. =( muz be the sun.. NO WONDER LAR.. i wasnt sweating todae.. o.O haiz.. shall go rest.. =( nvm.. i still love my c lit portfolio.. =D i love li yu.. he's sooooo poetic.. muacks to him.. erm.. hahahahaha.. i go open his coffin and muack his skeleton.. =S sounds sick.. bleagh.. nvm.. so im still sick.. try boiling an egg on my forehead then.. =( yar.. cg was good todae.. so lets pray for healing.. =D i think its sooo true.. i should be secure wif hu i m.. God loves me for hu i m.. i believe my frenz love me for hu i m too.. =D rite anot CHUAN CHUAN.. i love ur spring rolll.. althou im the last to finish.. BUD.. hao de dong xi shi yao man man ping chang de.. =D lalalalala.. yay i love CHUAN CHUAN.. i shall go rest le.. urgh.. FEVER!! =(

2005-03-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

woohoo! i muz be veri mad.. kylie will scold me.. =S cos i dint went to slp.. =X haha.. cos i got fever todae and it reached 37.9 and i almost fainted.. i like sooo long nvr sick le.. or rather had fever.. so i was dere wah tired tired tired the whole of ytd and todae.. ytd i was sooper scared k.. when i reached home after having lunch wif mj kia weiteng and cynthia.. felt sick on the bus.. took it as motion sickness.. dint realli bothered.. then wah sooper tired.. and slpt late last nite sending sze khee photos.. hah bud i felt so happie k.. cos i managed to send the 10mb ppt to her.. hoho.. and i thot i was going to die last nite.. cos i felt so sick and tired.. i almost wrote a will.. =X bleagh.. aniwaez.. yar.. then woke up feeling sooper sick.. dry throat plus running nose and headache.. yay.. and i went to measure my temp.. 37.6.. then i blink blink.. then went online(zhe ge jiao bu zhi si huo) saw weiteng.. then i asked a toopid question.. is 37.6 considered fever.. oh w0w.. then i veri bu shu fu.. went to see doc wif my mum.. then doc gave me mc.. thx har.. holidaes neh.. NO WONDER LAR.. becos of the toopid fever.. wo zhe me ye cannot do math.. haiz.. think i cannot realli do work le.. so sick lar.. walk oso can knock into wall lar.. so painful.. like turn the BANG.. ouch.. =( then slpt frm 2.30 to 6.30.. so sad couldnt go for prayer meeting.. bud i think i'll faint on the way dere.. i almost fainted todae.. =S haiz.. so lesson learnt.. always take good care of urself.. and see a doc when ure sick.. imagine i dint tell my mum tt i was sick.. wah.. sure die one lar.. as in not becos im sick.. cos my mum will @#$&^# me.. lalala.. =D aniwaez.. i think i hafta slp le.. wah.. 8.50!!! =S i love kylie! and chuan chuan and huiting and da jie!! thx for the msgs.. short bud it touched my heart nehz.. =D

2005-03-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

harlow! yay im back frm my lifeskills camp! its the best camp ive ever had in ny.. it rox rox rox rox..

DAY 1

wah.. okiez.. so we went to sch in the morning.. me wif my big converse bag and shoe bag.. i stuffed everything inside tt its so big lor.. then we went to the hall to esemble.. and i straightened my hair! straighten.. so it lasted for 1 dae onli.. ._. (yay see i using the weiteng trademark face! =)) heeh.. then we went to board the bus.. lalala.. then we were singing on the bus.. and we reached the place!! the D'marquee is so nice okie.. like so big!! then we went for personal grooming and make up.. okiez.. i was sitting beside tc... how bad can it get lor.. haha.. no lar.. tc is chio.. i think our class pple all veri chio.. then i help her make up.. haha.. then me and eK like long lost sisters lytt.. the person walk past us.. then sae we dun needa draw eye brow.. cos both too dark le.. haha.. then we slack and put make up..

then had lunch.. lunch is like so nice.. =) heeh then we went to play games.. we split our class to play 3 diff games.. heeh.. the volleyball.. soccer and tarzan jane and gorilla.. i played tarzan jane and gorilla.. tell u wad.. its sooper lame.. its like scissors paper stone lytt.. tarzan>gorilla>jane>tarzan.. too much math makes me mad.. =D then our beloved tc got veri good luck.. she help us win the game.. every time we get 9 then she'll eb the 10th pt.. =) muacks tc.. then unfortunately.. a ball flew towards her and her specs broke.. guess i dun wanna mention more bout it since its all over and its pieced back.. i shant remind my tc bout it.. =) bud tc papa loves u k.. and i think all the tears ive shed for u is worth it.. cos i got to see a happie tc the nxt dae! =D then we went for dinner which is indian food.. its nice lar.. budden hor.. pple wif low level of intelligence.. like me and eK cant realli eat wif our fingers.. we take up rice.. then the rice drop drop drop.. then onli a few grains left.. XD hah and my SI (aniwaez SI stands for same intelligence=eK) got me a spoon and we both ate wif spoons.. heeh.. then we went dancing! indian dance! and its like so fun.. cos we dint haf a indian tchr telling us how to dance.. we got the whole D'marquee to ourselves.. and we got the stage too.. so our class ran up and did the qian shou fuo thingy.. jac being the tallest stood in front.. then we jump jump.. then went down.. danced wif kylie! youxin! and tc... eh.. *fell frm chair* haha..

yar then we went back to our rooms and slpt.. and i set my alarm to wake us up the nxt dae. our room was in a big mess.. wif me and kylie slping on the floor and liting and amelia on the bed.. we were all too high in sugar content tt dae.. toked crap and ate ruffles.. me and liting were tokimg bout wu shi and laughing away.. and kylie poked me to see if im soft enuf to be her bolster.. ._. haha and we all slpt wif our shorts.. tts like a big big mistake.. cos the blankets got holes de.. as in the pattern lar.. then i was slping under the fan.. haha.. bud i slpt.. and keep knocking into kylie's mattress.. cos our mattress got wheels and hui you yong... HAHAAH.. not farni.. ._.

DAY 2

okiez we woke up when my hp alarm went off.. and obviously im the last to wake up.. everyone else bud me heard the alarm.. unfortunately the first voice i hear was frm liting.. haha.. and i refused to switch on the lights be4 i put on my hairband.. heeh.. cos my hair arh.. haiz.. then went for breakfast and off to the pasir ris beach we go.. then played some station games.. first station being the hula hoop thingy.. we're supposed to find the right path frm one red hoop to another without stepping on any mines.. hah.. then xinling got the right path and the rest juz followed her and it looked like snake.. u noe the hp game.. haha.. then we went to play the soft ball thingy at station 6.. we started frm station 5 and we're supposed to go in a circle.. yar then our beloved tc hit in the one and onli ball!!! we were all hugging her.. heeh.. then we went to station 7 to find all 29 ribbons in a maze.. 4/10 we juz rock okie! we found it within the time limit.. ALL 29 of them.. SI and me were looking at the ribbons.. we gotta find orange ribbons.. and it was so similar to red.. so SI couldnt differentiate.. and i dug one out frm the floor.. pple are evil lor.. tsk.. bury ribbons..

then we went to play at station 1 which is to throw tennis balls and the other person try to catch.. althogether 21 balls 14 players.. SI and me busily picking up balls.. then went to station 2 to play tis violent game.. we got out hands tied behind our back and were told to carry the gym ball to go ard the place.. the more rounds we make the more pts we get.. then we were trying to get our last pt be4 the game ends when xinling runs and fell.. so poor thing.. then we went to play at tis station to put 15 hands 15 feet and 5 butts inside the groundsheet then 10 hands 10 feet outside.. wif everyone inside the groundsheet.. so fun.. then last station we had to put balloon between our butts and walk in pairs to one end and burst it by sitting on it.. skip 5 times and run back.. toopid.. SI refused to burst balloon.. so i hafta do it.. urgh.. i got phobia lor.. then 2 time SI dragged me and i fell.. SI juz suck k.. haha.. no lar.. eK rox.. cos she's weiting.. wadeva.. XD then went back to find out tt one of the 4/6 gals got a cut on her poor face.. she got a lot of blood on her shirt k.. so poor thing.. think will leave scar.. then went back to serve lunch.. was threatening to gif weiteng no bee hoon cos im serving.. heeh.. then went for deportment.. toopid.. the veronica lim was asking us to stand and walk on stage row by row.. then i realised tt me and weiteng same row.. then we were like O.O the pt at each other.. then.. she was stopped to show how to sit and stand in a lady like manner.. then i was laughing.. then when i walked up.. i kena caught.. ._. then i was like.. o.O wad u wan.. haha.. so lesson learnt.. nvr pt at weiteng..

then got a short skit on dining etiquette.. i was veri pissed off wif the 4/6 pple.. so rude.. they were insulting the pple in front of them.. and xinling rox cos she ask them to go away.. yay.. then.. we went to our rooms to prepare for formal dinner.. i was soo uncomfortable in my toopid gown.. and kylie was so shuai lor.. haha.. took a lot of pix and realised tt my pix wif weiteng looks like a wedding foto.. and my pix wif kylie oso.. bud kylie wif bek wuay is the zhui xiang one.. haha.. 4/10 rox k.. then realised tt youxin can be sooper elegant at times.. big contrast wif tc.. =X then danced ard after dinner.. wif our high heels on bud it was sooper fun.. rox.. then went back to room to practise dance.. then me and liting veri tired after practising and slpt be4 the rest came back.. last thing i said to liting was im veri tired.. help me sae good nite to kylie.. and realised tt liting fell aslp earlier than me.. =D

DAY 3

packed up and woke up cos kylie hit me cos my alarm rang.. wah.. then heard tt we got caught for not going back to our rooms be4 12.30 they thot we were playing bud we were actualli practising dance.. got dance com and althou we dint win we did well... bamboo dance rox.. and took loads of pix and went back to sch to be dismissed.. went to westmall wif youxin liting bek wuay tc zt jac karin and tong.. SI joined us later cos she wanted to go town at first.. yay.. and they went to watch movie while me tc tong and liting went home.. i slpt frm 3 to 6 and i wanna go slp now.. =D sec 4 lifeskills camp rox k.. lets carry the 4/10 spirit wif us everywhere we g0.. 4/10 4/10!

2005-03-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

whee! todae is a happie dae! cos its like the last dae wif test.. and im like 0.0 when i saw the phy paper.. hope tt by the grace of God i can pass.. =) so sad even thou i got a1 for my chi bud some of my frenz dint.. im starting to hate tests and exams.. hate it.. y do they make the exmas so impt tt they are like more impt than our frenships.. idiot.. does it make the moe happie tt pple r crying becos they feel inferior.. =( hmph..

okie back to todae.. hoho i was supposed to like go change into my pe tee then after i change le go back class.. then saw cynthia sitting dere.. so im like.. liting.. wrong class.. then i exit.. then i stare.. no wad.. it saes 4/10.. weird.. then i saw all my classmates.. then im like.. ohh.. she came to find tong.. then i was telling her then her response=mj's response.. u veri toopid leh.. =( tis innocent.. hohohoo.. then was watching the other half dance.. like o.O haha.. zt and her ma chuang =X haha.. and tc rox k.. u rock u rock and u rock.. ure so nice to papa.. =D when im sad ure dae.. when im happie ure dere.. when im going to the toilet ure dere too.. XD

haha.. and of course went to my beloved bball match.. haha.. i wasnt dere onli for u noe hu k.. i was dere to support NY! finals leh.. then i was like.. WAD! when i saw tt aes got like dunno how many pple like they fill up ALL the seats opposite us and took the seats beside us.. im like.. =S the ratio is like 100:1 haha.. then they were waving flags and blah.. im like.. wave lar.. fan zhen ni men shu ding le.. XD haha.. then they booed us k.. i was so angry lar.. bud i think we cheered much louder! then ny won! woohoo! hah.. i realised tt their coach so nice! >.< then i was telling mj haha.. shh.. cannot sae.. then was shouting so loudly when we scored.. im like CYNTHIA!~~~ ARGHH!~~ WOOO!!~~~ then cough cough.. then ARH BALL BALL BALL!! then WEITENG!~~ was cheering so loudly when she scored.. then EUNICE!! NO!~~ FRAUD!! haha.. then i shout myself hoarse.. can u imagine tt..

haha.. then went home wif mj.. then went je to makan.. haha.. so farni cos we went to the ice skating place and i was like shivering~~ then mj was like not cold de lar.. then 5 mins later she was like.. yuxing we go out le lar! hah.. aniwaez todae was fun and i love it.. urgh.. bud still needa get my prom stuff.. 1 dress 1 handbag 1 pair of HIGH HEELS! CAN U BELIEVE IT THEY SAE WEAR HIGH HEELS.. i bet u 1000 bucks tt i'll roll down the stairs.. =( and erm maybe a shawl.. URGH.. im going mad.. heeh.. aniwaez i enjoyed todae! even thou i still feel a bit down here and dere bud well.. u cant be happie 24/7 i realised.. =D